|Current mood:|| lonely|
|Current music:||i told you up there!|
anyways, i'm suddenly feeling really guilt beause i think that its my fault that John is upset all the time =( i feel lik, i dunno, i'm making him feel bad. Ummm... i'll explain. i know he likes me likes me. .. and i think that when i talk to him about my problems with Sean it gives him some hope... but then when me and Sean make up it makes him feel bad. (i know that must sound really bigheaded, thinking that because a guy cant have me he gets upset) but i dunno, John is GREAT... and i dont EVER want him to feel bad, and i know hes going to read this... and i dont know what he will say. Hes not online, and i wanted to talk to him and play pool.
Robert really annoyed me at school today... and i had a GCSE music exam, but it was only 30mins long, and i enjoyed it.
i'm annoyed that its really nice and sunny outside, and yesterday it rained whne i went out, i really wanted to go to the park, but not in the wet. ARG! and today i could hae gone out and had fun in the sun. i hope it doesnt rain the nxt time i go to Johns... i told John that i would watch some racing with him (John likes racing) who ever thought that i would aggree to watch a sport? huh? huh? well, i'm sure it will be fun =D i mean, i can just annoy John if i'm not enjoying it. but i'm sure i will..
i feel sick...
i just found this compelation CD that i made ages ago.. yey!! these headphones suck tho. the CD has the Ataris on, Bradn new, Coheed and CAmbria, Finch, Funeral for a friend, Hell is for heroes, Hiding with Girls, Hot hot Heat, Him, Korn (i dont get why tahts there?!?), Lostprophets, the movielife, Taking abck sunday, Thursday, Uncle Brian, Waterdown and the white stipes. yey.... strage mix =S I think that i will make a ncie cover for it then give it to John, because he liked the other CDs that i gave him . . .