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| Current music: | Tangerine Dream by: Do As Infinity |
Tangerine Dream
Ok.. so it looks like I wont be going on a shopping spree this weekend. Yeah, its my first real paycheck from work! Yippie! But... I owe like 90% of it to Tony, because my computer broke down and I needed to get a new motherboard and processor. So I got an AMD, 1.3 gig? I think... see this is the only thing keeping me from being a full 'geek'. I don't know how to repair, install or upgrade hardware. Software, I can somewhat figure out what I'm doing. Maybe my brother was right, I should have had him teach me all of that. Oh well. =P
Well now I'm a bit faster when I play EQ, and I can actually see my bardish sparkles.
I'm feeling a lot better. I was feeling down a couple of days ago but I guess sometimes I get anxious or paranoid over little things. Like driving to new places, without knowing the way. Things like that scare me, because I don't wanna get into a car accident or anything. So yeah, I'm really paranoid. -_-;; I guess its keeping me from being more free. Also, sometimes I get really whiney about going to work... but in reality, when I get there and I see my co-workers, I feel a lot better. Its not so bad... and I'm getting used to it. Retail isn't really what I want to do, but I have no choice... we need money to pay bills and such. Its just that I'm not a salesperson, I don't want to try and sell things to people... like at work we're suppose to get 'Credits' which are company credit cards. We ask them if they wanna open a credit card with us, and they save 20% of what they buy today. Our goal is suppose to be 1 per shift, but I keep on forgetting to ask. And I don't really know the process, I've been shown twice but its hard to remember. So yeah! I'm a shy person and when I make mistakes, I really beat myself up over it. I hate making mistakes... *Lol*
I just need to relax... clean my bathroom and buy some bath salts or bubble bath and candles or something. Or... I need something that will relax me. Hrmm... maybe I'll go to the strip and do a spa day. =D That would be AWESOME... but they are kinda pricey.. like $20-50 for a full day. But it seems like it would be worth it. And I was considering trying Lithium Pills... well, maybe. I don't know if I really 'need' pills again. I would buy St. John's Wart but it works against birth control pills, which I want to start again. I haven't had a period in like months... BAH to women problems!!!
~Heidi
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