|Current mood:|| lonely|
|Current music:||"Freebird" (dedicated to Rachel)|
Whoo, where do I start. My best friend, Rachel, since I was 3 died Sunday. How great can life get? I had to watch them put her 6 feet into the ground today, which wasn't my idea of fun. She's been like a sister to me, my best friend, and someone who has been there through everything with me.
I loved her more than anyone will ever know. She was just an amazing person. A wonderful friend, and a great mother. She will be miss more than anyone will ever know.
On other hand, Have you ever liked someone so much, it kills you inside to see them? That sucks, huh? Yeah, it really does suck. Words do not measure up to knowing you can never have someone, that you want so badly.
And the sad thing is, that I don't even know him that well. I mean we're friends, but we havent exactly spent alot of time together, getting to know each other better, ya know? That's ok, I know that if he could be with the person he wants to be with, he'd be happy, and I respect every aspect of that situation, b/c I've been there before. It took me nearly 3 years to get over Casey. It's hard as hell, but we eventaully get passed it all.
I hope that him and the person he wants to be with, get back together. That would make them both happy, and me happy knowing that they are happy together. I just want what's best for them both. They are both my friends, and I always want whats best for my friends.
Well, I'll end on that note.