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And the Newbie strikes....
What a nice day to begin a journal. First I re-wrote everything in my hand writen diary earlier before mom and dad left to the mall and the groceries. I wanted to stay home. I have been home the WHOLE WEEKEND!!! Oh so what? No one cares!
I don't know. I guess being so nervous about graduation and this weeks final exams has me cutting again. I tried to stop the habbit but since I carved the initials of the guy I used to have a crush on, I started all over again with this bullshit. Oh... he doesn't mind it. I mean he doesn't even care. We are supossedly friends but.... I think we are only pretending.
I am in a okay/lazy mood. Tired little fuck I should be called. The guy I talked about logged online as I was naming him on here but heh, I hope he doesn't speak to me.
My friend Josh said that _ _ _ wants me to say goodbye to him. Oh yeah... like I believe that and like I will say goodbye to him tomorrow. He is so going to sit and wait.
Ok this is a lot of writing. I don't care! I can write more if you want me to. I'm here fighting with myself. Stupid yeah I know. I look in AIM at _ _ _ screen name and I am like.... "Please... LOG OFF!" I am scared that he might speak to me. I don't want to see him or talk to him. I am over him. I don't love him, I don't need him and I don't want him. Phew!
I'm also about to pull my hair off thanks to the finals. Two more days of school are left and after that is two days of finals and graduation. I still can't believe it. I finally graduate this year.
Blah blah blah. I have to go now. Really. My best friend is on and I need to talk to him.
Lisa
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