| Current mood: | loved |
| Current music: | Five For Fighting - Superman |
You can all sleep sound tonight, I'm not crazy, or anything...
I got home about 3 hours ago, and went straight to bed. It took more than 30 minutes just to fall asleep, and I woke up and hour and a half ago. Had a nightmare... It's been forever since I've had those, and this by far have been the worst of them. -Everything- important to me was gone. Maggie and Eric were both AWOL and off their meds, we got a message that Luka was shoot in the Congo, and the hospital was closed down with each one of my friends there moving to a different state. I woke up with cold sweat, shaking a bit... I hate that. And I hate that there is no one here that I comfort me and make me less scared. When I still lived with Eric and Maggie, Eric was my support... I was the strong one during the days, the one who looked out for him, but during the nights he was my rock. He often came into my room when I cried, crawled into my bed, hugged me and said that "it be okay, Abs", in this sweet and innocent 5 years old boy manner. I miss him a lot.
Oh, and John and I talked... We're over. Officially, that is, because we've been unofficially over for quite a while. And as much as it hurts, I am also relieved, and I'm trying to be hopeful about us staying good friends. I think we can.
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