So thinking of the Social D song far behind, I have kicked a small amount of people out of my life. I really never thought that I would want to kick anyone out of my life but three people in particular I don't want to talk to, they were nothing but trouble and a fucking headache.
The first person I actually didn't know for that long but he just got irritating and was full of bs. I thought him and his group of friends were pretty cool but he only wanted one thing from me and I knew this guy is just pathetic and a loser. I'm glad of that decision because he got some girl pregnant. He was such a moron. I'm glad I have no way of contacting him even if I wanted to, every blue moon he finds me on myspace and tries to add me and I press deny!!
The next two are a different story, haven't talked to one in a few weeks and another in months
Lets start with the crazy ex, he is just so self centered. The only reason I even talked to him was that I felt so bad for him and I feel as if he is ruining his life. He makes the same bad choices and he wonders why he is unhappy. I said I would help him but in the end he is still the same stubborn person and would not allow me to help, so I said fine. Plus it didn't help that he treated one of our friends like complete crap, so he has one less friend now.
Lastly the unmentionable. I'm just angered about this whole situation. I honestly don't ever want to talk to him or talk about him but I'm making this my last because I need to get things out so they won't bother me later. I really don't know where to start except by saying that I promised him we would always be friends. But as my favorite song goes "words are spoken to be broken". I know he wanted me to break my promise, and he did a fine job of that. Having some stupid chick talking crap about me and my religion. Telling people about personal things and having some dumb bimbo talking crap about my beliefs and religion, that crosses the line. I hope you read this just so you can know how much you hurt me. I thought I had a great friend. If there was something I wanted most in the world it was a best friend. I thought you were my best friend, but I was wrong. Whenever I think I have a best friend something happens, and I'm left without a friend. I should have known you were just feeding me bs because thats what you did to Jen, and of course you did the same to me. Sometimes I find myself missing the friend that I once talked to on the phone for hours. It is hard now and days to have a good phone conversation with someone. I really never had that with anyone else, I miss it, but once I catch myself missing talking to you I think of all the terrible things you have ever done, especially letting whats her name annoying the hell out of me. Hope she is banging you good, hope you get married to such an unclassy person like her. Right now I would prefer you back with cougar, at least she wasn't psycho, well maybe a little but at least she was decent, for a Texan anyway. You know probably a week after we stopped talking I heard your Hoobastank song, and for the first time I heard it in a different way. It was just words, meaningless words, all of it, just like anything that ever came out of your mouth. I know how you operate, I used to be your best friend remember? I know you wanted to give me a final push, all that bs about how we should start being friends all over again should have never been spoken. Especially because in the end you didn't want me in your life. You could have told me, I'm used to these things now. Lets see Juan used to be my best friend he found a new crowd, Jen used to be my best friend u f-ed that up for me, both my roommates don't want to get in the details of both of them, and my guy friends from school they have gf's now. You could have told me instead of your stupid plans, thats all you ever have is stupid plans. After writing this, it has made me feel a little bit better, just thinking of all the bad things, makes me not regret my decision. Like I said the only thing I miss is just conversations, whether they had a point or not, eventually I will find someone to provide me with a good long conversation, I will find another best friend, whether they are long term or not. But more importantly I will find someone who isn't a coward or a backstabber.
These are the types of people who just don't belong in my life
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