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Nothing I call love can clear away the clouds (_shatteredx_) wrote,
@ 2003-10-06 13:36:00
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    Current mood: content
    Current music:identity crisis_thrice

    here i am yet again at a standstill

    What time is it now: 1:39 pm
    Your Name: Kim
    Your Nickname: Kim
    Your Online Name: hxpelessR0MANTIC
    Your sex: Female
    Your Age: 15
    Your Sign: leo
    Your height: 5'7
    Your weight: 1--
    Hair color: brown with highlights
    Eye color: brown
    Hair length: long
    Do you wear glasses: yes
    Are your teeth straight: not on the bottom
    Do you have freckles: no
    Do you have a fake tooth: no
    Do you have a fake eye: no
    Do you draw fake moles on yourself: no
    Your religion: luthren
    Highest level of school: 10th grade
    Do you work: yes
    How do you dress: jeans, t-shirt, shoes&socks, underwear&bra
    Do you smoke: occasionally
    Do you drink: occasionally
    Do you do drugs: no
    Do you have friends: yes
    Do you have online friends: yes
    Do you like your friends: yes
    Do you like your online friends: yes
    Got any kids? NO
    Got any pets? a dog
    Got a car? no
    Live on your own? i wish
    Live with your 'rents? yea


    Type of music: emo, emo-core, hardcore, some metal
    Actor: idk
    Actress: dont have one
    Movie: Clerks, Mallrats, finding nemo, jay and silent bob strike back...
    Soda: diet pepsi, vanilla coke
    Food: pizza, ice cream, pilsbury choclate chunk cookies
    Sexual Position: haha any karma suitra position baby ; )
    Car: mitsibishi eclipse
    Hobby: listening to music, chilling with mah homies
    Sport: used to play basketball
    Musician: hmmm too many
    Artist: ?
    Author: Stephen Chobsoky...
    Anime: none
    Song: a lot
    Color: black, gray
    TV Show: boymeetsworld
    Brand of beer: um...molson
    Brand of liquor: Mike's
    Brand of smokes: now newports
    Brand of drug: --
    Brand of clothes: dont have one
    Record Lable: vagrant, drive-thru, eulogy, jump-back...
    Brand of glue: elmers...since kind-a-garten bebeh
    Online test: this??
    Online chat thing: aim
    Shape: wtf
    Texture: ?
    Game: games frustrate me
    Place: down port
    Year: 1998
    Holiday: christmas
    Quote: "hey baby ever got your asshole licked by a fat-man in an overcoat?"
    Animal: fishie
    Sound: music
    Book: a few
    Drink: soda


    Virgin: yes
    Butthole virgin?: oh man, yes
    mouth a virgin: ...
    Kinky turns you on: ah no
    More than 15 partners: no
    Have sex with music on: virgin
    Had group sex: no
    Had a threesome: no
    Had cyber sex: no
    Had cyber anal sex: wow, no
    Had sex with inanimate objects: hahah no
    Had sex with an animal: no
    What turns you on: you bebeh ; )
    What turns you off:
    is Oral sex is good: --
    Do you like sex: havent had it


    Have you lied: yea
    Do you lie: notnow
    Do you lie often: no
    Do you lie to save your own ass: depends
    Do you lie to save someone else ass: yes
    Would you tell a lie that stopped your death but caused the death of your lover: no
    Would you tell a lie that stopped your death but caused the death of your enemy: maybe...
    Would you tell a lie that let you keep your job but fired your friend: no
    Would you tell a lie that let you keep your job but fired "that bitch you work with": yes
    Have you lied to gain money: no
    Would you lie to gain money: no
    Do you enjoy lying to strangers: hey never talk to strangers
    Have you ever enjoyed lying to a stranger: no
    Do you lie to bums that ask for spare change, saying you have none: yes
    Would you dare to lie in the face of evil: sure
    Would you dare to lie in the face of your mother: um...
    Would you dare to lie in the face of your God: yes
    Would you lie to get laid: haha sure
    Have you lied to get laid: no
    Would you lie to get a job: depends what kind of job it is
    Have you lied to get a job: no
    Would you lie to get a date: no
    Have you lied to get a date: no
    Are lies really that harmless: sometimes
    Do you lie on online surveys to make yourself seem super cool: no
    Do you lie online: no
    If lying is sinful.. are you going to hell: not really

    Love life:

    Are you single: yes
    Are you with someone: no
    Are you married: no
    Are you divorced: no
    Are you "Separated": no
    Are you "on break": um...idk at this point
    Ever been in love: yes
    How many times: 1
    Looking back do you regret it: no
    Do you date people you meet online: no
    Do you date people you meet at bars: no
    Do you date people: yes
    Do you "net date": no
    Are you happy with your current status, why: no, because im confused
    Do you have a crush on someone close to you: yes
    Are you still holding on to the past: no
    Do you agree that Jet Li is a good husband for Shajuana: sure

    The following apply to you? Y/N

    Witty: sometimes
    Charming: no
    Quiet: when im in a bad mood
    Loud: yes
    Pretty: no
    Radical: no
    Sucky: yes, idk
    Smart: when i wanna be
    Stupid: yes
    Dumbass: yes
    Ugly: YES
    Slow: YES
    Fast: NO
    Talented: in which way ; )
    Useless: yes
    Punk: no
    Young: yes
    Old: no
    Past your prime: no
    You're just reaching your prime: no?
    Dashing: no
    Daring: occasionally
    Dainty: no
    Powerful: not really
    Athletic: no
    Artistic: eh no
    Superhuman: no
    Sexy: NO

    The following are Good/Bad

    Sex: good?
    Love: Good
    Happiness: Good.
    Rap: bad
    Pain: bad
    Pop music: extremely bad
    Anime: bad
    TV: good
    Country: bad
    Metal: good
    Nu-Metal: --
    Death Metal: --
    Industrial: --
    Punk Rock: good?
    Easy Listening: bad.
    Korn: bad
    Murderous Rampages: --
    Sega: used to be good
    Nintendo: Good!
    Play Station: good
    Game Boy: eh
    Chinese Food: good
    Italian Food: good
    Japanese Food: never tried
    Mexican Food: Good.
    Online Quizzes: eh
    Online Surveys: eh

    Whats your deep dark secret: --
    Whats your biggest fear: dieing alone
    Whats your greatest sexual experience: never had one
    Whats your best date ever: i never really had real date
    Whats your worst date ever: " "
    What is the most embarrassing thing that's happened to you: idk
    Would you make a good candidate for Jerry Springer: haha yea
    Anime isn't that bad is it?: idk what the fuck it is
    You agree that DVD is much better than VHS right? sure


    Do you hate America:
    Do you hate terrorism:
    Do you think America shouldn't be involved in the Mid East why:
    Do you hate western culture:
    Do you like America:
    Do you like Americans:
    Did you vote for Bush:
    Do you think Bush is doing a good job:
    Are you Canadian, you fuck:
    Do you believe your country is doing okay or would you change things:
    Are you conservative or liberal?
    Do you think immigration in America is out of hand?
    Do you think that group of black people suing some southern company for profiting on slavery in the 1800's has a good claim?
    Or do you think if they actually win, that every Native American should sue England, France and Spain for invading them, and profiting off them?


    Are you religious? No
    Do you believe in a higher being: no
    Is every religion wrong except your own? no
    Do you believe that any religion is lower than your own, or is wrong? no
    Is your God the only god?
    Are you going to heaven? idk
    Are you going to hell? idk


    Do you like it? yes
    Do you have any? yes
    Do you make a lot of it? eh good amount
    Do you get your money through illegal ways? no
    Do you pay taxes? no
    Do you think you shouldn't have to? yes

    Who did you get this survey from? a person
    What time is it? 2:23

    what time did you go to sleep last night?: 1 am
    what was the last noise you heard before you fell asleep?: the tvt
    the last thing you said?: goodnight
    what did you dream about?: cant remember
    do you drool or snore when you sleep?: grind my teeth
    when did you wake up?: 10..something
    how did you wake up?: phone rang
    what's the first thing that crossed your mind when you woke up?: i want to go back to sleep
    when was the last time you took a shower?: yesterday
    when was the last time you said i love you to the opposite sex and meant it, family doesn't count: thursday
    who was it?: pat
    where was the last place you went outside of your house?: down port
    who was the last friend you saw?: jay
    who was the last friend you talked to?: nick
    who's the one person you would die without?: tin
    what's your favorite song?: as of right now um...haha baby boy nah j/k idk
    favorite lyric?: too many
    favorite group?: thrice, atreyu, the used, fall out boy, from autumn to ashes, coheed and cambria...etc
    favorite album?: rivulets "debridement" afi "sing the sorrow"
    how many times have you been in love?: 1
    are you in love anyone right now?: yes
    do they love you back?: no
    if you could kill one person, who would it be?: hmmm idk
    how many pillows are on your bed?: 4
    what color is the bottle of shampoo you use, and what kind is it?: white, dove
    what color is the soap you use and kind?: blue, adidas
    what color is your razor?: pink
    what kind of deoderant do you use?: axe and adidas
    what kind of cologne/perfume do you wear?: cool water, ralph lauren and axe
    do you use lotion?: yes
    how long are your nails right now?: pssh really short
    how old is the computer you're on?: a year
    who was the last person to annoy you?: eric
    who was the last person you seriously kissed?: pat
    the last person you danced with?: idk
    do you believe in God?: no
    how long are the showers you take?: 10-15min
    how many showers do you take a week?: everyday so 7
    do you love your parents?: sometimes
    do you love your siblings?: when they dont beat the shit out of me
    what's the worst thing that ever happened to you?: my mom dieing
    when's the last time you cried?: couple of monthes ago
    why?: pat
    the last time you wished you were dead?: now
    the last time you felt important?: never
    the last time you felt sad because someone close to you was hurting?: couple days ago
    the last time you screamed?: yesterday
    have you ever physically hurt yourself?: yes
    how smart are you?: pretty smart
    what person are you extremely attracted to, and not just because of looks?: .....cough pat cough
    do you like being outside?: sometimes
    what one person do you know you could always turn to?: tin&eric
    who do you look up to?: tin
    who's the last person that made you cry?: ...
    is emotional pain or physical pain worse?: emotional
    where do you want to live?: france
    how many scars are on your body?: a lot
    how many people do you love?: a lot im a whore
    who's your best friend?: tin&eric
    who do you turn to for advice?: tin
    if you could bring back one person from the dead, who would it be?: mah mom
    on a scale of 1-10, how happy are you?: 2
    on a scale of 1-10, how depressed are you?: 0
    what color are the sheets on your bed?: green
    how many cds do you own?: over 80
    what are 3cds you wish to own?: dropkick, everytime i die, beyonce---hahaha j/k
    what is your greatest regret?: dont have any
    when was the last time you were sick?: now
    are you hurting anywhere right now?: yea
    who do you wish was near you that isn't?: at this moment? tin
    what do you wish you were doing right now?: sleeping
    when was the last time you had a nightmare?: saturday
    are you talking to anyone right now?: eric, katie, jay
    what are you talking about?: having anal sex
    who's the last person you were on the phone with?: nick
    are you pale?: not really, im supposedly fuckingYELLOW
    when was the last time you brushed your hair?: yesterday, its up now
    how much do you weigh? 1--
    have you ever wanted plastic surgery?: yea
    how many screen names do you have?: 2
    which one do you use the most? hxpelessR0MANTIC

    wow that was really motherfucking long.

    well this is one of my numerous journals, i keep making new ones for no reason, someone is going to eventually find this and comment. because they always do. but i dont really give a shit right now. i know im going to miss him, hes just been i guess a part of my life for so long that im going to miss him, and my so called friends are pushing me to go out with new people someone i dont know, a random person that i havent had interactions with and then other friends are fighting over who gets me now. this time i feel differently like everything will work out in the end, maybe he did just need to see what it was like to be with someone else or a break, i can be over-bearing at times, and i dont know it...but at this time im still not over him, and i still love him very much no matter what anyone decides to tell me about the things that hes done and stuff, i love him.


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