|Current mood:|| depressed|
i was so depressed today. i took my keys and i tried to cut my wrists with them. i'm actually thinking about going into the bathroom, taking a razor, and cutting somewhere on my body. somewhere.. where no one will ask questions about it. i want to take a razor to my wrist, but people will ask me questions about it, if i wear a short sleeved shirt. maybe i'll just wear my hoodie or something. i dont know.
im going to ask my mom if i can stay home tomorrow. i doubt she'll let me, but im going to try and ask her. yea, i'll be bored out of my mind, but its better then being in school. its better then wanting to go home while i'm in school, and have no way to get home.
i really want to spend this weekend with tony. i really need to sit down and talk to him. he helps me out, a lot. plus, i haven't really spent much time with him. i'm also going to try and bring some stuff with me.. when i go to sleep over his house. maybe his mom can pick me up on saturday. if not, then i can see if she'll pick us up from school on friday. i just dont want to get caught with anything while i'm in school. if i do, i'll be screwed.
alright, i'm done. i think im going to go lay down in my room. maybe i'll fall asleep or something.. get my mind off of wanting to cut myself. yea.