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|Current music:||+the early november+every nights another story+|
ok i'm stupid
ermmm last night i went kinda crazy. mmmm...not like i wanted to kill myself, but i got a little wired on quite a few different types of my perscribed medicines...but i woke up didnt i? therefore meaning i didnt take enough to hurt me...all is good. i just freaked out though...like totally freaked. mmmm...i don't know how to explain it, it was just all weird. I was so fed up of feeling like shit, that i thought it was a good idea. It did make me feel better for a while, until i started to freak and got really paranoid that my dad would find me...
is it weird that i found it fun at the time? looking back at it, the feeling that i got was great...my mind was going really fast...and i couldnt sit still or anything. but then i got sleepy and freaked out. meh...i text jo at that point. She is gonna go crazy.