everything sucks and i want to cry.
i'm back from my lit tour, and the only person that actually gives a fuck that im back in town is Kev. I realised this weekend that Jo always says how much she's missed me when i go away, but does she phone me? no. Does she text me? No. When i got back from holiday the first thing i did was phone her. Does she even bother to text me back anymore? no.
i fucking hate this. i hate these fucking stupid one sided friendships i have with everyone and i hate the way it makes me feel. Even if they do, it really does seem that if i disappeared people wouldnt care or notice.
argh i just want to fucking scream, have a cigarette and cut.
for fuck sake im so fucking pissed off.