|Current mood:|| melancholy|
|Current music:||el super bowl|
i'll grow up one day.
i'm tired of finding these really great people and then settling for them to be happy on their own, without me. like just being able to witness their happiness is good enough for me. and i'm so happy for whatever happy they get, or want to get. i'm so happy just to know them, and i make myself believe that that is enough for me, all i really want. and it is. because i am also convinced that i am not enough for anybody who is really important to me, that they need so much that i could never provide. not that i'm not good enough, just not enough for them.
and i hate feeling inadequate all of the time. but i am.
have decided to sit back a bit and try harder at being quiet. listen. not make so much needless noise.
let's hear it for poorly constructed, choppy sentences