Alex (2heartscollide) wrote, @ 2004-05-14 18:34:00

Okay. So, I would like to announce that I am officially completely infatuated with Graham. I seriously cannot stop thinking about him. I've known this kid for three years and never once have I felt anything physical towards him, and now, I have completely fallen for him.

And he doesn't want me, I know he doesn't want me, and I don't care.

The thing is though, if it weren't for the fact that he flatout told Allison that he doesn't think of me that way, I would probably think that he was interested. Because he's so friendly. Although I guess he's kind of just like that with everyone.

When I was walking to Spanish today I passed by him walking in the other direction.

And he winked at me.

And I think I almost passed out.

I floated into Spanish today. I was glowing because he WINKED at me.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME

GRAHAM I WOULD LIKE TO RAPE YOU, YOU BRILLIANTLY ARTICULATE INNOCENT BOY-BAND LOOK-ALIKE PRETTY BOY.

Ha. That last sentence felt good.

My mother was reading our school newspaper and she saw a picture of him, and she was like, "your friend Graham is very good-looking" and I was like "yeah" and inside my head I was like "HELL YES HE IS GOOD-LOOKING, HE'S NOT JEWISH AND HE'S A FUCKING MODEL."

In journalism the flirting is seriously getting out of hand; we were trying to have an editor's meeting the other day and Allison threatened to "separate us unless we shut up," Matt told us to "get a room," and Kim told us to "just go to prom together."

Graham why do you like Erin, Erin doesn't like you, you asked her to prom and she said no.

GRAHAM PLEASE HOOK UP WITH ME

(Lindsey, you probably think I am absolutely insane by this point; Jess, I'm not worried.)

Matt keeps on making jokes to me about Graham... MATT HE'S YOUR FUCKING BEST FRIEND WHY CAN'T YOU CONVINCE HIM TO MARRY ME?!

I wonder if Matt gives Graham shit about it too, and I wonder how Graham responds if he does.

(This is by far my most embarassing post to date.)

(However, it's posts like this that are the most therapeutic, so I'm just going to continue.)

(Actually maybe I'm done. More later.)

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