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Today I am...well...at peace with myself. Im content with a past I regret. But I do forgive myself for the mistakes that I have made and it feels good. :)
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[12 Aug 2003|08:04pm] |
today i am in the mood for: cleaning, writing a song, working my current painting, taking pictures, and sewing up a new purse/bad thing
of coarse only half/none of these will get done.
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[11 Aug 2003|08:29pm] |
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Today I am a bit anxious, but busy. I return to school on friday. Not anywhere near done packing yet...but not stressed (yet).
I'm so incredibly ready to return to my friends. Not that I don't love my family...but you know how that goes.
Today I've talked to my little brother a lot. Yay. I heart him. Hopefully he'll visit me at school some. I'm an RA so no roommate to freak out and an extra bed. So yay.
Okay...back to the *amazing* amount of laundry I have to do.
PS. I think this journal is the cutest idea ever.
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| Too Day... |
[11 Aug 2003|12:38pm] |
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Today I`m in a mucho, ultra, uber, very, spiffy mood. Nothing major has happened today, but I am guessing that I just woke up on the right side of the bed. Days like these are the best.
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[09 Aug 2003|11:45am] |
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Today I am... falling in love....
Hey Kids... I think this community is a wonderful idea (props to you maintainer!) Perhaps I should introduce myself. My name is Bee (Or properly lIndsey), I'm 16 and am not the simple person I have perviously thought myself to be.
Today I am falling in love. Some one so beautiful I have to wonder if I'm dreamming has recently walked into my life. He's more than I ever deserve but is everything I need. *Sigh* One problem.... he's my best friends brother. Over a year now has our relationship grown and now finally we are together but I am still torn in possibly screwing up my relationship with his sister.
..::Bee::..
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| Today i am |
[08 Aug 2003|02:03pm] |
trying my best to improve myself. i feel lonely, and lost, yet somewhat wanted and still needed but shut out all at the same time by one person.
Today i am determined to get him back.
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| ..I wont be ignored.. |
[07 Aug 2003|12:37am] |
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Today I am worried. I found out that my mother is going back into the hospital for heart complications. She and I both have Cardiovascular Disease but she was a weaker heart. She came home today from her appointment and she was crying. I sat down with her on the couch and we cried together. I am going to have a heart attack by the time im 35. My fahter is in Ft Hood so he can't be here to comfort my mother so It's my job. It seems like I've been the person that everyone has been coming to when they need a sholder to cry on. It makes me feel wanted, even needed. That's a great feeling to have.
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[05 Aug 2003|10:00pm] |
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today i am not punk. but you'll think i am. with my pigtails and toesocks and lion king pin. because thats what punk has become. an accsessorie. its fun to trick you. but you'll never really know me.
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| NEW LAYOUT |
[01 Aug 2003|08:50am] |
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Today i decided i will also be making a new layout for this Community.
I make about 2-3 layouts a day for other users, and am alsays working on mine, why not have a decent looking community layout??
Any suggestions, requests, coments?
note: the current layout is most likely not what the finished thing will look like. i was just goofing around.
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[01 Aug 2003|08:06am] |
today im feeling pretty crappy.
I havnet slept much lately so i thought i would be able to yesterday, but no. i couldnt. i procrastinated tooo long to get my breaks fixed and they were scratching metal on metal. my dad said he would fix them but that required me to drive 50 miles down to mapleton. wait for 30 mins for him to get off work. then I ended up taking the wheels, calipers, brake-pads, and roters off by myself while my dad ignored me. then forced to drive to 5 different checkers, each one beig farther and father away. by the time we got back with the new equipment we found out that we would have th rebuild the calipers and we didnt have the tools and the stores were all closed by then, except auto zone, but my dad wouldnt go there. so i had to take my sisters car back up here and have to drive back down today.
the moral? remember how i said i was tired? well usually sometimes i can take a nap after work but not this time. i just have to drive all over the state this time.
also feeling crappy for the way ive reated zak the past little while.
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[01 Aug 2003|12:20am] |
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im new.
but yeah so today im feeling like SHIT. im heartbroken.sad.unloved.and lonely.i feel like theres no reason for me to live.but it seems like everyday i feel like shit.i feel like nothing ever goes right.And everyday i look in the mirror an i always wish that i was someone else.it sucks i hate being me.but oh well.im out.bye.
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| ..Freak On A Leash.. |
[31 Jul 2003|01:27pm] |
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Today I am content. I'm cleaning the house, listening to music, dancing around and just feeling strangely happy. I ordered pizza (even though I shouldn't have) and It should be here soon. I was playing wit Legos earlier. I made a Penguin (I'll show pictures of it later). Yeah anyways that's pretty much my day. tOOdlez.
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| ..heart drenched in wine.. |
[30 Jul 2003|10:16am] |
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Today I am worried. My mother had a doc. appt. this morning at 8. It's a stress test. I don't think she is going to do so well on it. I hope she makes it home okay too. Today I'm just really bored. I should clean the house for my mother. :)
My little brother is coming home today. He has serious anger managment problems. That makes me want to leave so I don't do anything to upset him and he go off on me.
bleh.
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[28 Jul 2003|11:06pm] |
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I'm new...
so I'm guessing I'll tell of who I was today,
today I was, well a tired tired me. I felt like crap and slept all day.
so realy my world was just that, my world all day. I spent all morning, afternooon and a great part of the evening in my head. I had nightmeres - the worst kind where the go in circles, the whole time. and still I slept.
I guess I didnt want to wake up and face the real world, I felt more secure in my head. knowing that, I could control it all, nightmere or not I could control it all... well Im done
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| im new! |
[28 Jul 2003|09:41pm] |
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im new here..i think this community looks nice..
heh, so anyway..today i feel pretty tried. do to lack of sleep..cuz im an isomniac :-/
but im also confused about how someone that i <3 feels about me..like if they feel the same..i have heavy doubts..so today i feel tired and hopeless..
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| ..I never knew.. |
[28 Jul 2003|07:22pm] |
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Today I'm alone.
I realized that for the first time in 4 years I am alone and I hate it. I'm not just alone by means of not having a boyfriend, I'm also alone as in no one knows me. I have no one to talk to. No phone calls to make and no letters to write. Goes to show how pathetic I really am.
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| Whoo hoo its me again people |
[28 Jul 2003|03:52pm] |
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Today I am well clean cause i just took a shower, and I am not feeling very well, and I am fed up with the immature people in this town that think they can take people's lives and judge them and write their phone number down on a table in the center of town so the whole town can see and so people think she is a whore and call her number for a so called "good time"! Grrrrr..... Today I am pissed! Someone wrote on the park pinic table for a good time call Danielle and then my number. I got a phone call and I am pissed. The stupid moron who did it did not block their number stupid idiots and I am turning them into the police for harrassment. But still i am mad!
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[29 Jun 2003|09:28am] |
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i am slightly amused, slightly anoyed with myself, feeling sick and gross, and am proably not gonna be in a good mood today.
but... its almost my Birthday! horray.
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[22 Jun 2003|07:56pm] |
At the Start of 2day I felt:
Happy & Refreshed
But then i started thinking about my boyfriend going to a different school, and now i'm feeling:
Like a Pile Of Shit
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| today i am |
[19 Jun 2003|07:49am] |
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testing this account
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