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[17 Aug 2003|10:31am] |
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Well we are all on orders to go on this nice little relaxing trip that was set up for everyone. I mean like everyone is here. Tatsumi-san apparently got us booked as this little hot spring resort that on teh outside looks nice but on the inside is a love motel. . . great... Watari and I got this nice little room that has a baroque theme for it. Looked normal enough till you open the closet and see these outfits of rich people and whores... I know that Wakaba and Terazuma got a Jungle theme one of Tarzan and Jane, then Konoe-san got this one that is a traditional tea ceremony type deal but there are prostitutes all over in it, don't know what Tatsumi-san got, but Tsuzuki and Hisoka got the newly wed room. all except Tatsumi-san complained about the rooms. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I feel so uncomfortable in this place... I know we're suppose to relax and all but how can you when everywhere in this place it screams go skrew someone! . . . Watari wanted to last night I could tell. I came back from a walk to get around it and I found him passed out on the bed wearing one of those outfits. . . I woke to find that he had picked me up off my little bed in the floor and put me up on the bed. This is making everything that happened worse. I don't want to think about what happened but I can't help but be reminded. I hate being here. I just want to go home and sit in my room reading a book or just laying there in bed in the quite dark. .... I feel bad for not telling Watari that I just can't. I don't know why I guess I'm just afraid to. I still love him and all but I just want to forget everything. . . . . maybe I'll try that piece of music I have to forget stuff. maybe it'll work on me. . . I'll think about it though as I take another walk in the gardens. I really like the drum bridge they have. it's so quite there. . .
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[17 Aug 2003|11:05pm] |
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Well.... we're all here at this love hotel... Tatsumi put us all up for a nice relaxing vacation...
But I'm worried about Hijiri. He won't talk to me, he goes for walks all by himself. Hell, he won't even look at me. I feel like he's avoiding me... like he's mad at me or something.
I wish he would talk to me about it. I want this to be a relaxing vacation for him, but something's really bothering him and he won't talk to me about it at all. I really want to help him.
He's out taking a walk... I wanted to go with him... but I don't think he really wanted my company... he doesn't seem to want it at all, lately...
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