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memorable evening. . . [04 Jul 2003|12:13am] [ mood | loved ] well it's been a while but I've been really busy that I haven't had time to update. Had to take care of Watari till he got back from being a lion. I can feel the blush already from that. See when he turned into a lion, he was inside of his clothes. I had just taken a shower and I find him naked and confused on the couch. I thought I would never say this but he looks elegant. I mean him. like his form. . . and. . . ok that's enough. but it was good to have him back and I missed his embrace so much. We did get to go to Osaka. The last time I went there, I was playing for a concert there and only got to see like the airport, my hotel room, and the concert hall and that was it, but it's so beautiful. Watari took me sight seeing a bit. I have to develop the pictures soon and show them off. I was thinking about making a collage with them but maybe when I have time. Watari and I went to a very nice temple that was having an annual ceremony. I'm still kinda confused on what it was for but you went up to the priest and he poured water on your head as you prayed. it was a blessing ceremony I think. But anyways, we went to the museum and a few other places. Then that night, Watari surprised me and took me to a festival that was going on. The booths had so many nifty things! Watari said he would buy anything I wanted but I didn't want a thing. I liked just being there with him and that was enough. but then I changed back. . . During the fireworks. I'm now back to my old normal size and that change really made me feel sick. I guess I was disappointed but I felt so dizzy and about threw up. my body didn't like the sudden change again but thankfully after a dip in the hot springs at the hotel we were at and a good night's rest, I felt much better. The next day we went to go see Watari's mom's grave. It was hidden in the back under a cherry tree that hung over the wall from next door. It was very peaceful there. I usually don't like going to go see even my family's grave but I felt at peace and it was very tranquil there. Watari laid some flowers on his mother's gravestone and I bought some sunflowers to put by Watari's grave. I remembered hearing that his grave was next to hers and I thought I would put his favorite flowers there. I think it hurt Watari to remember his life. His neighborhood that he grew up in, was mostly condemd and about ready to fall apart at just a push from a finger. He was in a very depressive mood all day but I think it helped that I was there. And then dinner at a nice resturant seemed to help too. I can tell he likes to spoil me. I'm happy anywhere with him though. no matter what. After dinner, we went back to the hotel to wind down and take another dip in the hot springs since we were going back the next day. I didn't want to go back. I just wanted to stay there with Watari and hold onto him tightly. But I knew we had to go back. The hot springs help to flood away the thought of work and then something happened and Watari and I were kissing in the hot springs. I mean no one was around and it was just us since it was the off season and everything but something about the way he held me was different. . . more intense. He told me then he wanted to be with me that night. I didn't know what to say. He was ready but yet. . . I was too. We went back up to the room. the words are lost to me as to how it was but. . . it was wonderful. so surreal. . . . not like anytime before with anyone else. It was so right in many ways and Watari was wonderful. It was his first but it was like he knew exactly what to do. He was a little unsure of himself but he cared and didn't want to hurt me in anyway. I still can't believe that we laid together that night but it was beautiful and I still can remember every detail of what happened. . . I knew that it wasn't a dream when after we got back, Watari was all "sparkley" I mean everywhere! there were sparkles. I thought that you know. . this would be between us but I think the whole office knows. actually I'm sure. oh well. I'm glad that Watari is happy and that's what matters. Oh! something interesting happened yesterday as well. Tsuzuki's sister came down from heaven! I never knew what it was like to have sibilings but it was rather amusing to see the way Tsuzuki's sister Ruka, mothered him. But Tsuzuki was not happy that she was there. but she was worried that he wasn't doing all right. She's sweet but a bit too hyper. well sorta hyper but mostly she keeps going and going and you get the idea. She invited Watari and me to dinner. I haven't seen so much food in so long and had anything that tasted that good! I'm going to have to get her to teach me some things before she goes back to heaven. the dinner conversation was a bit too much family only for me but other then that, dinner was good. well I need some sleep. post comment

Memories revisted [04 Jul 2003|02:16am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | The Hong Kong Knife - Love Me ] By Enma... it was wonderful.... *_* Hijiri and I made love for the first time that last night in Osaka... and... well it was so dream-like and unreal, but absolutely beautiful. *little hearts everywhere* I'm pretty sure that everyone in the office knows now though. I just couldn't stop thinking about it. Tsuzuki mentioned something about sparkles everywhere around me. I wouldn't be surprised ^_^. I'm happy that I finally got to be with Hijiri. I had dreamed about it for so long and I was finally ready. Concerning our other undertakings in Osaka on the second day, we went and got some lilies for my mother, and went to the cemetary. We passed the apartment building where my mother and I used to live before... I had to move back to Kyoto. I grew up in Osaka. It was my home... even though Kyoto is my home too. I don't want to think too much about Kyoto though. I seem really happy everytime I go there... but there are some things there that I'd rather not remember. But on to other things. We went to the cemetary. Mother was buried in the very back beneath a cherry tree that hangs over the stone wall. I'm back there too... but I prefer not to look at my grave. Hell, I'm not even sure how I died. I don't know if anybody knows. I think that maybe I'm better off not knowing. But Hijiri and I knelt, and I arranged the lilies on Mother's grave, and we talked to her a bit. I introduced Hijiri to her and told her that I loved him and how very special he was to me. I hope she likes him. I know... I talk about Mother as if she's still alive. But, I know she's not. She passed away some 56 years ago. She was the most wonderful mother that someone could ever have, and her love was unconditional... even though... there were certain things about me... and my existance, that were painful for her, I'm sure, but she loved me anyway. I miss her very much. I don't talk about her often, but I think about her a lot, and I carry a picture of her in my pocket. It's a very old and worn photo by now. It was taken almost 60 years ago. But... moving on, Hijiri went over to my grave, the rather neglected thing it was, and put some sunflowers there... they're my favorite flower, because they mean happiness. After we left the cemetary, we went to dinner, and then back to the hotel and into the hotsprings... where... I decided that I was ready to be with Hijiri, and we went up to the room and... well you know the rest of the story ^_^. Oh! Hijiri's talking in his sleep. @@ shit, it's 2:13 in the morning, and I have to be to work at 8 am. Tatsumi mentioned something about a new mission to me, so I'll probably be staying late to research. I hope it's nothing too big ;_; post comment

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