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[28 May 2003|08:49am] |
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My back is still hurting. No surprise there. It's not as bad as before though, thankfully. It's finally getting better!
Yesterday was pretty normal and slowpaced. We caught up on work, and no one had any problems. Well. Okay. The minor problem of people being nosy about me and Hisoka kinda got on my nerves but other than that it was fine.
Seems everyone in the office is placing bets on when we'll sleep together. Terazuma is delighting in pissing me off, using Hisoka as a way to make me blush. And what's worse, Wakaba thought my back being sore was because Hisoka had-- argh. You know what to me. She gave me KY as a gift too. Lucky for her she got the hint to leave, and Hisoka added yet another dead pencil to the stack in his drawer.
I got a little mad and had an outburst, yelling at everyone to just stop it cause the teasing was just rubbing my nose in the fact that we WEREN'T doing anything. No one bothered me about it for the rest of the day after that. I couldn't help but feel a little left out though, cause Watari and Hijiri are... well, rather lovey dovey nowadays. I know if I tried kissing or touching Hisoka two things would happen: 1. People would tease us and Hisoka would get mad, and 2. Hisoka would get mad and either shove me away or slug me.
So I just don't do it. It's hard enough to get him to cuddle at home. He's not very public about his affections, and though I understand, it feels sort of....cold. I probably shouldn't be feeling like this... I'm going to try and ignore it, and hope that the feeling passes. I don't want to make Hisoka feel bad about this, I know he loves me. But to him, he never had sex that was tender or loving, so he doesn't really understand what I mean when I say I want him.
I just have to bear with the chastity, and show him little by little. I think he can learn. But he's not ready for it yet. I guess until then it'll be cold showers for me each morning. *sigh*
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[28 May 2003|05:36pm] |
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Tsuzuki's upset again. I don't have any idea why.
I'm pissed off because nearly everyone in the office is betting on when Tsuzuki and I are going to get intimate. They're treating it like some stupid game.
I don't know if that's what's wrong with Tsuzuki, though. It's frustrating knowing he's upset but not being able to tell what he's upset about. I even invited him out to eat lunch with me in the sakuras, trying to cheer him up. After that comment about me being shy in public...che. It worked for a little while, at least.
I'd just as soon give him space, but if this gets any worse, I'm going to confront him about it.
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| feeling the cold.... |
[28 May 2003|08:36pm] |
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Damnit. I wish I didn't feel like this. Didn't feel do goddamn lonely. Hisoka loves me. I should be happy it's even that. But no, I have to WANT him. Long for him. Love him like that...
It's so frustrating, that I can't help but cry.
And I was stupid and took that damn quiz someone dropped in my mailbox.
You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing,
but never lasting.
What kind of kiss are you?
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Wow. Says a lot about my fucking life doesn't it?
I'm going to bed now. If I go out of my room, I might just break down. I'll be okay.... I just....have to pull myself together tonight. I'll be ok tommorrow.... I will.......
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| Nuzzles |
[28 May 2003|09:12pm] |
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Well, 003 is back to being a bird. It seems that he went rouge and was harrassing Hijiri ;; and that's why he was sou upset and avoiding me. He raped Hijiri and threatened him with all sorts of nasty things. I wish he told me. It's better that he's an owl though. He's so much nicer.
Hijiri sprained his ankle coming to save me from 003... and I don't want him walking on it, so I gave him a piggy-back ride to work, much to his embarrassment. He's so cute when he blushes. I think he's a little angry though. I got him lunch today and we ate together. I nuzzled him the whole time. I couldn't help it. Konoe walked in as I was nuzzling him and saw... and so did Terazuma. Now there will be rumors about he and I rather than Tsuzuki and Hisoka. They need a break from the rumors and bets though.
I made dinner for Hijiri and I tonight. He's taking a shower right now. I just finished making desert too ^_^ he should be out to enjoy it soon though. Maybe we'll watch a movie after that.
You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p
What kind of kiss are you?
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I think that fits ^_^
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| strange email. . . |
[28 May 2003|10:34pm] |
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ok first of all someone sent me an email sending me this quiz. The name was anoynomous but I know that they sent it to Watari, Tsuzuki, and Hisoka. it's really odd that I can see who it was sent to but not from who it was. oh well here's my results
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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ok I'm like really blushing. I wondering if Watari thinks this is right. ^^;; I honestly don't know what to think. Anyways. Well today was very tense. Apparently Tatsumi-san is the broker for the office bets to when Tsuzuki and Hisoka become intimate. ok first of all it's wrong that Tatsumi-san is doing something like that and second of all it's no body's business if they do or don't. It's annoying that they keep pushing them and Tsuzuki has had it too. He blew up at Tatsumi-san. that was unusal but I can't blame him. Well, Watari made dinner and this really good cake ^^ it had carmael on it! right now he's gone to get some tea for us to sip on while watching the movie. He's been rather affectionate lately. I mean Konoe and Terazuma caught us snuggling during lunch but I actually was enjoying it. I love to bask in his warmth. I feel that safeness. but he keeps kissing me on the cheek. that kinda catches me off guard and I get embaressed. well I still like it anyways. but since Terazuma caught us, hopefully Watari and I will be the gossip and get that off of Hisoka and Tsuzuki. Well hopefully anyways.
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