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[18 May 2003|02:08am] |
I can't feel Tsuzuki at all. This time there's nothing to distract me from it. Emotionally, he just isn't there...I can't sense the slightest trace of his feelings. It's...unnerving.
He doesn't even know why his walls are up. They're really strong barriers--as good as Tatsumi's...but I don't think he knows how to get rid of them.
The whole house feels colder without his stupid happiness floating around.
Plus, we think Muraki's back. This is absolutly the last thing we need right now.
Tsuzuki had better fix his barriers before we get assigned a case. I want to be able to find him if anything happens.
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[18 May 2003|02:34am] |
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Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've been sleeping, working, or spending time with Hijiri. That's all.
We ate dinner tonight... and shared dessert. <3 we fed it to each other. it was great. I love his cooking... but I love him most of all. <3 <3 <3 We went a little overboard this evening... but we didn't get very far... we both got tired and laid down to sleep. I just woke up a bit ago.... I'm going to return to him in a few minutes... He's sou cute when he sleep! -^_^- <3
I wish I had some money... I want to buy him something... or take him somewhere... just the two of us.
He found out about my sex-change potion... and my reason for trying to make it... but he told me that he loved me no matter what... no matter what I was.
We talked after dinner... mainly about being together forver and how much we enjoy each other's company. He found out the other night that I'm still a virgin. Yes. I AM STILL A VIRGIN! We almost went REALLY overboard that night...
well... back to bed... I'm so tired... and we go back to work on Monday... goodnight
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| back to work tomorrow. . . |
[18 May 2003|11:23pm] |
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I can't wait to get back to work. I actually missed the desk time strangely enough. I mean don't get me wrong. I did enjoy my time off and to be able to spend more time with Watari. but I'm ready to go back to work. but those times with Watari have been fun. and. . . very calming and exciting at the same time. I love everything about Watari. the way he makes me feel, the way he holds me, says anything, the way he moves, his eyes, his silky golden blonde hair. . . . well just everything. especially the way he moves. his movements are fluid and well planned it seems when we are together. He does have his clutz moments but last night after dinner. . . I didn't want to stop. I could hear his heart beat . . . but we went to bed and went to sleep in each others arms. I felt really warm that night. and I was glad to wake and find that it had not been a dream. . . . well it's late and both Watari and I need to get to bed so we can wake up for work.
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