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It was really nice last night. Hijiri came over and apologized to Hisoka (who was a bit surprised I'm sure), and then Hisoka and I had yet another talk regarding this empathy issue between us. As an affectionate person, I made the mistake of pinning Hisoka twice, not thinking that my wrestling might scare him.....I didn't mean to, I was just teasing him. I like to touch him, and he doesn't seem to mind too much...
But he told me he doesn't like being pinned down. His parents would do that and beat him when he showed his powers, and Muraki....well, needless to say, it wasn't something he liked. I felt a bit ashamed after that. I didn't mean to make him feel that way....
Then he told me he liked to be held. Just not pinned. So I did hold him. He fell asleep against me after a while, so I took him to bed and tucked him in. He said he hadn't been getting a lot of sleep so I wanted to make sure he'd be comfortable. I probably shouldn't have, but I got in bed with him and held him during the night. He didn't stir once, and to be honest, neither did I.
It was probably the best sleep I've ever had, alive or dead. And he didn't hit me or get angry at me when I woke up with him either! In fact we cuddled some more. <3 He seemed a bit subdued that I was there to hold him that night. And then I let him lie on top of me, so he wouldn't feel pinned. I wanted to be closer to him, so it seemed like a good idea at the time.
But after a few kisses and snuggles, other parts of me had doubts.
One cold shower, and a breakfast of muffins later, I sat down to watch the news. Muraki's up to his old tricks again. Only this time, he's using MY face. The deathtoll in Kyuushuu's rising steadily according to reports. Video tapes and footage from several of the cases has clips of someone who looks like me sucking the blood out of living victims.
I'm going to kill Muraki. That's on Monday though. For right now I'm going to relax, and try not to let it get to me for Hisoka's sake. I know he hates to see me upset, especially over Muraki. There's Hisoka now. I'm going to go now, we're going out to lunch today.
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