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Thursday, September 1st, 2005
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11:32 am
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painless_affair
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So tired, tired of these dramas
No more, no more
I wanna be free
I`m so tired, so tired
Broken heart again
Another lesson learned
Better know your friends
Or else you will get burned
Gotta count on me
Cause I can guarantee
That I`ll be fine
No more pain (no more pain)
No more pain (no more pain)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
Noone`s gonna make me hurt again
Why'd i play the fool
Go through ups and downs
Knowing that all the time
You wouldn`t be around
Or maybe I like the stress
Cause I was young and restless
But that was long ago
I don`t wanna cry no more
No more pain (no more pain)
No more game (no more game messin with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
Nooone`s gonna make me hurt again
No more tears (no more tears, I`m tired of cryin everynight)
No more fears (no more fears, I really don`t wanna cry)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
I don`t ever wanna hurt again
Wanna speak my mind, wanna speak my mind
Uh, it felt so good
When you let go
Avoid these dramas in your life
Now you`re free from all the pain
Free from all the game
Free from all the stress
So bye to your happiness
I don`t know
Only God knows where the story ends
For me, but I know where the story begins
It`s up to us to choose
Whether we win or loose
And I choose to win
No more pain (no more pain)
No more game (tired of your playin` game with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
No more, no more, No more, no more
No more tears (no more tears, no more cryin every night)
No more fears (no more waking be up in the morning)
No drama, no more in my life
No more drama, no more drama
No more drama, no more drama
NO MORE DRAMA
NO MORE DRAMA
No more drama in my life
So tired, tired of these drama
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| Saturday, April 16th, 2005
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2:49 pm - Today's Tears
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greys_fairy
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And I cried today,
Spilling tears oh so sweet.
Because I've lost myself,
And I feel incompete.
So I cried today,
There were no tears of joy.
I thought about decisions made,
And the consequence of choice.
When I closed my eyes today,
I only thought of then.
Times of joy and laughter,
Of sweet innocence.
And I cried today,
Spilling tears oh so sweet.
Because I've lost myself,
And I feel incompete.
current mood:  cynical
current music: Ani Difranco
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| Sunday, October 24th, 2004
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3:06 am
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| Monday, October 18th, 2004
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9:48 pm - The streets - dry your eyes
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snien
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"Dry Your Eyes"
In one single moment your whole life can turn 'round
I stand there for a minute starin’ straight into the ground
Lookin’ to the left slightly, then lookin’ back down
World feels like it’s caved in – proper sorry frown
Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us
I can change and I can grow or we could adjust
The wicked thing about us is we always have trust
We can even have an open relationship, if you must
I look at her she stares almost straight back at me
But her eyes glaze over like she’s lookin’ straight through me
Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity
When they open up she’s lookin’ down at her feet
Dry your eyes mate
I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up
There’s plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you’ve got to walk away now
It’s over
So then I move my hand up from down by my side
It's shakin’, my life is crashin’ before my eyes
Turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh
‘Cause I can’t imagine my life without you and me
There’s things I can’t imagine doin’, things I can’t imagine seein’
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely
Please, please, I beg you please
She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested
She wraps her fingers round mine with the softness she’s blessed with
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures
By pushin’ my hand away to my chest, from hers
Dry your eyes mate
I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up
There’s plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you’ve got to walk away now
It’s over
And I’m just standin’ there, I can’t say a word
‘Cause everythin’s just gone
I’ve got nothin’
Absolutely nothin’
Tryin’ to pull her close out of bare desperation
Put my arms around her tryin’ to change what she’s sayin’
Pull my head level with hers so she might engage in
Look into her eyes to make her listen again
I’m not gonna fuckin’, just fuckin’ leave it all now
‘Cause you said it'd be forever and that was your vow
And you’re gonna let our things simply crash and fall down
You’re well out of order now, this is well out of town
She pulls away, my arms are tightly clamped round her waist
Gently pushes me back and she looks at me straight
Turns around so she’s now got her back to my face
Takes one step forward, looks back, and then walks away
Dry your eyes mate
I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up
There’s plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you’ve got to walk away now
It’s over
I know in the past I’ve found it hard to say
Tellin’ you things, but not tellin’ straight
But the more I pull on your hand and say
The more you pull away
Dry your eyes mate
I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up
There’s plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you’ve got to walk away now.
current mood:  crushed
current music: osdorp posse - braakwater
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| Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
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3:33 pm - ......
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treeofmercury
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Elliott Smith- No Name #2
Concrete hands picked up the telephone ring.
Do you know who's you're talking to?
No, and I don't care who.
She whispered quiet terror news.
He didn't give a hoot,
said 'Do what you have to do'.
All she had to do was speak,
mouthpiece to cheek.
Please say no more.
I'm lying here on the ground,
a strip of wet concrete.
Her name was just a broken sound,
a stutter step you hear when you're falling down.
Killing time won't stop this crying.
Killing time won't stop this crying.
Killing time won't stop this crying.
You better start watching what message that you send now.
No more situations, I only go in to be kicked out.
He got knocked down, leaning like he ran into a clothesline
and remembered a couple of words that hid a crime.
You were just fine.
You'll be just fine,
but I'm on the other line.
Killing time won't stop this crying.
Killing time won't stop this crying.
Killing time won't stop this crying.
current mood:  hungry
current music: Elliott Smith- No Name #2
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5:10 pm
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serene_dreamer
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oooh ooooooh
oooh ooooooh
oooh ooooooh
oooh ooooooh
we were lovers
we were kissers
we were holders of hands
we were make believers
just losing time
and you said you'd rather live in tv land
than say that you care
but you don't
that's heartless and i will not cry
but i'm still in love
and i'm still in love
and i'm still in love
and i'm still in love
your dreams of acting onscreen
what do they mean
you'll be dancing senseless in your bedroom
and you find yourself out of a job
and before too long
you'll be selling lemonade to the overpaid
and i'm still in love
and i'm still in love
and i'm still in love
and i'm still in
love
oooh ooooooh
oooh ooooooh
oooh ooooooh
oooh ooooooh
i remember
it was summer
i was out of my head
but you weren't you're selfish
and a waste of space
but i'm still in love
and i'm still in love
and i'm still in love
and i'm still in love
i'm still in love
and i'm still in love
and i'm still in
love
current music: 'still in love song' ~ the stills
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| Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
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7:42 pm - Poem
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snien
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School.
De scholen zijn weer begonnen,
Buitengewoon vreselijk,
Om van te kotsen,
Om kippenvel van te krijgen,
Om nachten wakker van te liggen.
Als een nachtmerrie waaruit je maar niet wakker schrikt,
Als gevangen zitten tussen muren en hoe hard je ook gilt het geluid word weggezogen.
Niemand die je hoort.
Niemand die je begrijpt.
Als je ergste nachtmerrie maar dan 10 keer erger.
current mood:  sad
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| Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
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9:58 am - evanescence - lies
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snien
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Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, persuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again.
You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above
They'll never see
I'll never be
I've struggled on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched, awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree
Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived and I died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you
They'll never see
I'll never be
I've struggled on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
They'll never see
I'll never be
I've struggled on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived yet died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you
They'll never see
I'll never be
I've struggled on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
current mood:  tired
current music: none
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| Sunday, August 29th, 2004
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11:23 pm - "Clover"
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I want happiness
I seek happiness
to cause your happiness
to be your happiness
take me
to a true Elsewhere
deliver me,
a bird in a gilded cage,
a bird bereft of flight,
a bird that cannot cry,
a bird all by itself.
so take me
I want happiness.
happy just to be with you
happy just to see you smile
so take me
to a true Elsewhere
please, take me
to happiness.
my first thought
and my last wish,
a promised land where fairies wait
with room just enough for two.
so deliver me, help me
to forget the tribulations of day
and to stay in this dream of night,
where I can be thinking of you forever
take me
to my bliss.
current mood:  calm
current music: Chrono Cross= Frozen Flame
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| Saturday, August 28th, 2004
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12:47 am - Hiii
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snien
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Yeah, it worked.
Duvet
Lyrics by Jasmine Rodgers
Music by bôa
And you don't seem to understand
A shame you seemed an honest man
And all the fears you hold so dear
Will turn to whisper in your ear
And you know what they say might hurt you
And you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing
I am falling, I am fading,
I have lost it all
And you don't seem the lying kind
A shame that I can read your mind
And all the things that I read there
Candle-lit smile that we both share
And you know I don't mean to hurt you
But you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing
I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning,
Help me to breathe
I am hurting, I have lost it all
I am losing
Help me to breathe
I'm so totally IN LOVE with this song.
Does anybody knows it?
current mood:  dorky
current music: k-liber - viben
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| Friday, August 27th, 2004
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3:49 pm
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serene_dreamer
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Hey girl, get on the dancefloor
And rip it up, yeah
That's what it's there for
That's what it's there for
So rip it up, yeah
Ah rip it up and tear it up
Until you really don't know why
Until you don't know why
I seen a man there
Down at the station
He's got a head of ideas
Has just too many reservations
It turns me round, yeah
It breaks my heart, yeah
It rips me up and tears me up
You know I really don't know why
You know I don't know why
She says love is the law
Why don't you come round no more?
She says I loved you so much more
When you were down on the floor
I said well well
That ain't nothing
You got to rip it up
You got to pick a stitch
And turn me round, yeah
And break my heart, yeah
And rip me up and tear me up
You know I really don't know why
I really don't know why
Hey girl, get on the dancefloor
Just like I told you
That's what it's there for
That's what it's there for
So rip it up, yeah
Ah rip it up and tear it up
Until you really don't know why
Until you don't know why
So rip it up, yeah
And tear it up. yeah
And just please don't stop
And rip it up
current music: 'rip it up' ~ razorlight
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3:48 pm
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serene_dreamer
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This party isn't working, oh no
Yeah we need to find days like we used to
Living off a shoe string
never never knew what the night would bring
Now you look like you've been up for days
People come in
People walk out
There's really not much to shout about
Still you rack em up, knock em back
Line em up, put them down
Have a little taste, then you work it out
Yeah you rack em up, knock em back
Line em up, put them down
Have a little taste, then you figure out
And it all comes out
And I said I just can't get there, no more
So tell me which way is out?
You said I just can't get there, no more
So tell me which way is out?
And I put your picture right up on my wall
And I said show me how to walk
Show me how to talk
Show me how to be a man
That's all I need
I really put all my faith in you
But then you left right there
At the top of the stairs
With your mind half gone
And you never even cared
Still you rack em up, knock em back
Line em up, put them down
Have a little taste, then you work it out
Yeah you rack em up, knock em back
Line em up, put them down
Have a little taste, then you figure out
And it all comes out
And I said I just can't get there, no more
So tell me which way is out?
You said I just can't get there, no more
So tell me which way is out?
Tell me which way is out?
Tell me which way is out?
Tell me which way is out?
I never know
I never know...
current music: 'which way is out' ~ razorlight
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3:46 pm
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serene_dreamer
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Oh when did you decide
To start living like it's suicide
And wasting all my time
And messing up my mind
Oh now darling please leave me alone
I'm so tired I wanna be on my own
But you come on calling on my telephone
And I wish I could show you somewhere better
Better to go
And when you get there
Well if you freak them all out
With your sweatshop charm
You'll leave them in no doubt
And when you get challenged
You'll only lie about your age
But it's the distance you travel
And the fields you unravel
And all the bars on your cage
Oh now darling please leave me alone
I'm so tired I wanna be on my own
But you come on calling on my telephone
And I wish I could show you somewhere better
Better, better, better to go
To somewhere else
Somewhere else, somewhere else
Oh you've got to...
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Oh just leave me alone
What don't you understand
Just leave me alone
What don't you understand!
What is there to understand?
Just leave me alone
Just leave me alone
Just leave me alone
Just leave me alone
current music: leave me alone' ~ razorlight
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3:45 pm
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I lost the sacred feeling but I
Made a couple of friends and now
Our things have never looked so good
Our things have never been so clear
And now I'm alone with you
I'm always up all night
And I get music running in my head
And I, I lose the strength to fight
Cause I, I've been up all night
She's been up all night
We're, we're just up all night
This town is for the counterfeit dreamers
And maybe I'm one too, well I
I keep my hand behind my back when I
I don't know what else to do
The streets that I grew up in, they might mean
Nothing to you, but I
I'll show you where I come from if you please
Just tell me what I'm supposed to do
Cause I, I've been up all night
She's been up all night
We're, we're just up all night
That sweet and sacred feeling you know
Will never last long
Every time you turn around you'll see
One more part of you, yes it's gone
I need your spirit darling
And lend me your helping hand, and I
I'll meet you in the morning
When I've broken up the band
Cause I've been up all night
She's been up all night
We're, we're just up all night
And I've been up all night
She's been up all night
We're, we're just up all night
I've been up all night...
current music: 'up all night' ~ razorlight
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| Thursday, August 26th, 2004
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3:36 pm
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And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new
current music: 'the blowers daughter' ~ damien rice
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3:34 pm
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serene_dreamer
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Don't hold yourself like that
You'll hurt your knees
I kissed your mouth and back
But that's all I need
Don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea
Don't throw yourself like that
In front of me
I kissed your mouth your back
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for what I give to you
Is just what i'm going through
This is nothing new
No no just another phase of finding what I really need
Is what makes me bleed
And like a new disease she's still too young to treat
Volcanoes melt me down
She's still too young
I kissed your mouth
You do not need me
current music: 'volcano' ~ damien rice
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3:32 pm
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Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
current music: 'cannonball' ~ damien rice
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| Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
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1:24 pm
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Honey, It's been a long time coming
And I can't stop now
Such a long time coming
And I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating
Can you hear that sound
Coz I can't stop thinking
And I don't look down
And then I looked up at the sun
And I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravity pulls on everyone, on everyone
Baby, It's been a long time waiting
Such a long, long time
And I can't stop smiling
No I can't stop now
And do you hear my heart beating
Ah can you hear that sound
Coz I can't help crying
And I won't look down
And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I, on you and I
Can you hear my heart beating
Can you hear that sound
Coz I can't help crying
And I wont look down
current music: 'gravity' ~ embrace
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| Thursday, August 12th, 2004
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10:14 pm - 'Birds without wings' by louis de bernieres extract
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'His brief time with Tamara had provided him with inklings of what might be between a man and a woman, and his heart, his stomach, his loins and his throat yearned for something that he could not articulate even to himself. He needed someone to meld with. He knew himself to be something like a garden where the only flowers were those of potatoes, ragweed and neglected onions, but a true gardener would have been able to drape the trellises with vines, and coax up tulips from the earth. It would be too simple to say that Rusteem Bey was looking for romantic love, beacause in reality he was looking for the missing part of himself, and these are not often the same quest, even though we sometimes think they are.'
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9:30 pm
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serene_dreamer
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Nehemiah, last survivor in this cynical world
Sparks come from anywhere, it's the fire that matters
Nehemiah, you are the leader, we all just follow
Sparks come from anywhere, it's the fire that matters
Hear us singing, we sing yeah yeah yeah yeah
No self pity, we sing yeah yeah yeah yeah
Friendly fire, burn the liars, don't feel like your alone
Let them all hide behind their flags and old lies
Nehemiah, sing to the stone, make it turn around
It's all decided before you're born
Hear us singing, we sing yeah yeah yeah yeah
No self pity, we sing yeah yeah yeah yeah
People come on, make a stand
Come on people try again
You're not alone when the lights go off
Stand together when it all stops
Every little second we sing, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
No self pity, we sing yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah...
People come on, make a stand
Come on people try again
You're not alone when the lights go off
Stand together when it all stops
current music: 'Nehemiah' ~ hope of the states
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