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My story isn't that serious, but either way it hurts.
I've liked this guy named Jack for about three months now. When I told his friend I liked him, he went and told Jack. Currently, Jack was liking this girl [Audrey] so he wasn't too interested. I wrote him a note, then I met him. My stomach dropped. I haven't had that feeling in a long time. I seen him in that hallways all the time, and I'd always get butterflies. We would give eachother notes and stuff. Then I felt a little more comfortable around him, and spring break came rolling along. He went out with another girl [Shannon] and it bothered me. I tried to have fun over the break and not worry about him.
Finally, I thought I was over him. I walk into school Monday with my head held high, thinking nothings going to stop me now. I was wrong. There he was, looking better than ever. I felt my knees get weak, and my heart beat faster. On Monday night he broke up with Shannon, and the next day asked out Audrey. He was going to Florida for a week, so I wanted him to go over my friends house [Michelle] so I could see him. I played with his hair, and he left. Then around eight he came back, and we layed in my friend's bed together. It was the greatest thing, I felt so happy. Then he had to go home, and we hugged eachother goodbye.
All week I was going through withdrawl, waiting impatiently for him to come back. When he came back, I was so happy. Wednesday night my friend Michelle IM's Me saying that he might break up with his girlfriend. I was excited. Thursday he comes over, we lay together for a while. Him so close to me made me feel so good. Then he had to go. He left, and Michelle told me he wanted to kiss me but I had my head down so he couldn't. I WISH I WOULD OF KNOWN THAT.. but oh well.
We ended up hanging out a few more times after that, and his bro asked both of us if we liked eachother. He said yea, but I dunno..things changed. He supposedly doesnt like me anymore. But I still have a feeling he does, or maybe I just want it that way and my mind won't see reality. This hurts a lot.
Does anyone have the slightest bit of advice to help me out in this situation? It would be greatly appreciated.
<3 Samantha
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