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[05 Jul 2008|12:04am] |
And it's only when I'm angry that I feel complete
When we are screaming at each other is when I am most happy
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[05 Jul 2008|12:07am] |
seriously you should make me happy and do this. i know i'm obnoxious when i ask BUT DO IT ANYWAY bc i am sad and you need something to do. go go go go go!
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[05 Jul 2008|12:14am] |
this is the grace that only we can bestow.
this is the price you pay for loss of control.
this is the break in the bend,
this is the closest of calls.
this is the reason you're alone,
this is the rise and the fall.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:34am] |
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i'm not stable enough emotionally to even hug you without meaning it with every ounce of me.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:37am] |
but things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
and i would gladly hit the road get up and go if i knew
that someday it would lead me back to you.
that someday it would lead me back to you.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:37am] |
nothing you ever planned on ever turns out the way you planned.
cute words to get on the back of my neck.
thinking,
hope.
love.
idk?
ideas? thanks.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:39am] |
lol @ this drunk boy giving me his number and me loving it so much that i texted him already
IM REALLLLY DESPERATE
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[05 Jul 2008|12:41am] |
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and for one desperate moment there he crept back in her memory. god it's so painful when something that's so close is still so far out of reach.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:44am] |
my friends, my habits, my family, they mean so much to me. i just don't think that it's right. i've seen so many ships sail in, just to head back out again and go off sinking. i'm just a box in a cage, i'm just a box of mistakes
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[05 Jul 2008|12:45am] |
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"i've finally realized the people that you love who don't love you back are just another lesson in life .. it's like God is teaching us that there can be so much better than what we thought was the best."
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[05 Jul 2008|12:46am] |
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is the movie, The Happening, worth watching?
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[05 Jul 2008|12:54am] |
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ughh, my life!
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[05 Jul 2008|12:54am] |
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this is where i say i've had enough and no one should ever feel the way that i feel now. a walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and i don't believe that i'm getting any better.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:54am] |
and i am a writer, writer of fictions, i am the heart that you call home. and i've written pages upon pages trying to rid you from my bones. and if you dont love me, let me go
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[05 Jul 2008|12:57am] |
this is love, isn't it?
when you notice someone's absence and hate that absence more than anything?
more, even, than you love his presence?
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[05 Jul 2008|01:03am] |
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omg there is the grossest bug ever on my blanket and im so afraid to move bc i squished it with my precious moleskine and i didnt want to but it had to die and now i'm afraid to move bc it was like.. i dunno what. it was HUGE and black and looked like a wasp but huge and black and wtf i'm so fricking afraid save me
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[05 Jul 2008|10:09am] |
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"what do you do when he stops loving you? well, you cry a little...then you wait for the sun to come up, it always does."
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[05 Jul 2008|10:42am] |
We kiss till we bleed
We feel so much it's killing us
We fight till were free
And he threatens to leave but won't let me
We cry till we see
Infatuations break us down
We're healing at three
We dance inside this tragedy
We dance inside this tragedy
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[05 Jul 2008|10:46am] |
I'm obviously out of my god damn mind
that I would even think of you in this light or lack there of
I know that you wont
we know what they don't
So leave my head
but if you find your way back to my doorstep
you won't even need to ring the bell
cause I've been waiting by myself
for your lights to shine around the corner
and pull right in the drive way
a bottle of wine
a mountain to climb
but hey, that's always been our story....
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[05 Jul 2008|10:51am] |
We broke each other down
I love you's don't mean shit now
Tonight i have a feeling i might whisper to my ceiling
Give me back all the memories you saw us leaving
"We were broke and didn't know it"
isn't it funny how you become the songs you sing?
This never meant a thing.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:53am] |
enjoy your coffee baby
cause life just ain't that sweet without me
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[05 Jul 2008|10:54am] |
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i keep hearing this bird and it the damn thing sounds like its in my room.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:54am] |
keep walking away
start your car like you mean it this time
and I'll watch you from behind my bedroom window
as you're pulling away
I only wished that you would stay
I only wish that you would...
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[05 Jul 2008|10:56am] |
down another drink
blacken up your lungs
forget this best you can
buried under drugs
what's love when there's no such thing as trust?
she's got a smile that's made for pictures.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:57am] |
and in the end the words won't matter
'cause in the end nothing stays the same
and in the end dreams just scatter and fall like rain
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[05 Jul 2008|10:57am] |
every time you're near,
trouble disappears,
under the ground.
but when you go too far,
silver clouds will start hanging around.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:59am] |
run after her
this could be just like a movie.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:01am] |
push me till i have to fly
i've shed my skin, my scars
and take me deep out past the lights
where nothing dims these stars
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[05 Jul 2008|11:04am] |
Time never had a chance to heal your heart,
Just a number always counting down to a new start.
If you always knew the truth,
Then the world would spin around you…
Are you dizzy yet?
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[05 Jul 2008|11:27am] |
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that boy's just a walk away joe,
born to be a leaver,
tell you from the word go.
destined to deceive her,
he's the wrong kind of paradise,
but it was just another lesson in life,
that boy was just a walk away joe.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:32am] |
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the woman before me must have hard on you, 'cause that hurt in your eyes i never put you through. sometimes i think you must be talking to, the woman before me in you. sometimes in an argument, it will show, when you go a little farther than you meant to go. i know you don't mean the things you say, i just want to ease the pain that's in your way.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:35am] |
you spend an awful lot of time in massachusetts,
seems like every other week you've got a meeting waiting there.
business must be booming or could something else be moving in the air up there?
you say that it's important for out future,
an executive on his way to the top must give it all
and each time duty calls you give it all, you've got with all your heart.
when whoever's in new england's through with you,
and boston, finds better things to do,
you know it's not too late,
'cause you'll always have a place to come back to,
when whoever's in new england's through with you.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:12pm] |
once upon a time,
you loved me.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:19pm] |
your past full of land mines i can't see,
i can't disengage this heart.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:30pm] |
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lips like gravity pull me under.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:35pm] |
young love shaking the earth,
like a heart shot out of a gun.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:52pm] |
i'll come back to you. it'll be brand new.
but i promise we're just friends.
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[05 Jul 2008|12:57pm] |
is it the red wire, or the blue wire?
just pick one and cut.
it just doesn't matter anymore,
or did it ever?
'cause i could never control
when the bomb would explode.
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[05 Jul 2008|01:30pm] |
But you left the door so wide open
that I was sure you'd come back in
And now the only time I can hold you is in my mind
And that doesn't seem to fill me up inside
any lyrics about losing your baby?
i found out i had a miscarraige ):
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[05 Jul 2008|02:02pm] |
you don't remember me but i remember you
i lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
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[05 Jul 2008|02:36pm] |
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home,
you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay
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[05 Jul 2008|02:37pm] |
we are here to save your life; the fool, the drunk, the child and his wife. we won't let the sun go down, we're gonna chase the demons out of town
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[05 Jul 2008|02:39pm] |
And I'll be here by the ocean
Just waiting for proof
that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams
All my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes
And every waves drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question,
"Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice, He said,
"Son, that's the question."
Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?
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[05 Jul 2008|02:40pm] |
i just want back in your head
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[05 Jul 2008|02:42pm] |
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And I'll have you know I'm scared to death
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[05 Jul 2008|02:43pm] |
"why me?"
"that is a very earthling question to ask, mr. pilgrim. why you? why us for that matter? why anything? because this moment simply is. have you ever seen bugs trapped in amber?"
"yes." billy, in fact, had a paperweight in his office which was a blob of polished amber with three ladybugs embedded in it.
"well, here we are, mr. pilgrim, trapped in the amber of this moment. there is no why."
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[05 Jul 2008|02:44pm] |
I could only sing you sad songs
And you could sing along
And you could see the melody
That's been calling out your wrongs
And this never will be right with me
And now you're trying to desperately
But i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say
But i never told you everything
I'm losing hope and fading dreams
And every single memory along the way
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[05 Jul 2008|02:46pm] |
Cuts on paper hearts
They can be awful deep
Lips from wear and tear on different city streets
Don't all need a home,
but just a place to sleep.
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[05 Jul 2008|02:47pm] |
my name is jonas, i'm carrying the wheel. thanks for all you've shown us, but this is how we feel. come sit next to me, pour yourself some tea just like grandma made when we couldn't find sleep. things were better then, once but never again. we've all left the den, let me tell you 'bout it. the choo-choo train left right on time, ticket cost only your mind. the driver said "hey man, we go all the way," of course we were willing to pay
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[05 Jul 2008|02:47pm] |
And still she finds that every time she runs
She leaves behind another piece of her
On every city street
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[05 Jul 2008|02:49pm] |
The low fuel lights been on for days
It doesn't mean anything
I've got another 500, 'nother 500 miles
before we shut this engine down
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[05 Jul 2008|02:51pm] |
i listened in, yes, i'm guilty of this, you should know this. i broke down and wrote you back, before you had a chance to. forget forgotten, i am moving past this, giving notice. i have to go, yes, i know that feeling, know you're leaving. calm down, i'm calling you to say, i'm capsized, staring on the edge of safe calm down, i'm calling back to say, i'm home now and coming around
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[05 Jul 2008|02:51pm] |
Take heart, sweetheart,
or I will take it from you.
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[05 Jul 2008|02:54pm] |
who gives a fuck about an oxford comma?
i've seen those english dramas too, they're cruel, so if there's any other way to spell the word, it's fine with me
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[05 Jul 2008|02:55pm] |
we're one mistake
from being together
but let's not ask why it's not right.
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[05 Jul 2008|03:13pm] |
And your mother's still calling
you insane and high
And you tell her to give in
to the demons that possess her
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[05 Jul 2008|03:30pm] |
you could call me anytime and i'd come running,
i'd go to hell and back to rescue you.
i'd give up my soul and everything I own,
if that’s what you want, i'd do that for you.
but now you're asking too much,
you want me to find somebody new.
i never thought i'd say this,
but girl, congratulations,
you found the one thing i can't do for you.
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[05 Jul 2008|03:57pm] |
fav jodi picoult novels?
or sara dessen? idkidk
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[05 Jul 2008|04:39pm] |
last night i came for the first time during sex! also my first gspot orgasm ftr
THIS IS EPIC NEWS OK
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[05 Jul 2008|05:22pm] |
You're running through my veins,
you feel like a freight train,
I'm trying everything to keep my hands off of you.
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[05 Jul 2008|05:24pm] |
If I could gather up the nerve
I'd put my feelings into words
And if I weren't so young, or stupid, or restless
I might be able to just soon forget this
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[05 Jul 2008|05:27pm] |
You're as fake as the moans you make,
And you're as weak as the hearts you break.
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[05 Jul 2008|08:43pm] |
does anyone have "don't you know you're beautiful" by kellie pickler? it won't download for me :(.
i'm not impressed, i want you back.
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[05 Jul 2008|08:52pm] |
but you, you're always on my mind. it's like this all the time.
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[05 Jul 2008|09:02pm] |
orrrr does anyone have "with you, without you" by brad paisley?
because that also won't download :( pleaseeee?
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[05 Jul 2008|09:14pm] |
i couldn't feel you, you were always so far away.
so, i've posted before. my boyfriend and i had a huge falling out, and he broke up with me.
he says he doesnt know what he wants anymore, i want to make it work but idk if it's even worht it.
i'm willing to give it one more shot if he'll let me.
he's away, so when he comes home, i want to make him something.
request :
any lyrics, to say im sorry? and i still love you? to put on my artwork.
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[05 Jul 2008|09:14pm] |
i bet you'll never remember half the things i could never forget.
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[05 Jul 2008|09:34pm] |
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back from italy! but i'm sooo exhausted, jetlag is a bitch !
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[05 Jul 2008|09:35pm] |
"I can't believe you have nothing to say," I mumbled as he put the key in the door and slid into the driver's seat. He fastened his seat belt, put the key into the ignition, turned it on.
The door was still open.
"You're not listening," he said finally.
I looked into his eyes and saw that they were shiny with tears.
"Most people talk when they have nothing to say," he said. "I'm not talking because I have too much to say. None I'd want you to hear."
Then he shut the door, backed the car out, and drove far away from me.
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[05 Jul 2008|09:35pm] |
wtf @ people setting off fireworks right behind my house AGAIN....the 4th is over and i was a good sport all day yesterday :( if they wake up my kids i might have to kick some ass :(
how is everyone tonight?
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[05 Jul 2008|09:43pm] |
"What are you afraid of?" Marcus asked, breaking through my thoughts.
What am I afraid of? Why should I be afraid to spend uninterrupted time with my boyfriend? Is it because more time means more opportunities for him to change his mind about me, like he does about everything else?
Or for me to change my mind about him...?
"Jessica?"
"Nothing, I replied. "Nothing at all."
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[05 Jul 2008|09:48pm] |
my heart, you know it plays like a metronome.
if the record skips a beat, my heart will too.
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[05 Jul 2008|09:58pm] |
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i really want to watch harry potter FIVE but i can't find the disc :( :( :( :( (
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[05 Jul 2008|09:58pm] |
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and i can easily understand how you could easily take my man, but you don't know what he means to me, jolene.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:01pm] |
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idk. i don't wanna open itunes and ran outta book quotes that i haven't posted 98478765 times.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:02pm] |
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Your eyes are like sea glass, so weathered and worn.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:05pm] |
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I'm on the brink of something beautiful, and I want to sing about it, but I don't know where to begin.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:21pm] |
there's so many things i wanna say to you
it's been like this the last two years
you're slowly consuming my every thought
but you've caused me so many tears
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[05 Jul 2008|10:24pm] |
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love is a game until it's played; and if it's lost it can't ever be saved. we have heaven to win and hell to lose, but the difference is up to me and you.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:25pm] |
five years worth of kisses are packed in your bags.
this tiny moment fits all the big things we ever had.
and i can't quite pinpoint when it left or what for.
love always steps lightly away from the door.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:30pm] |
i'm happy to admit that maybe i am a little depressed
'cause i'm missing you to death
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[05 Jul 2008|10:31pm] |
A is for all the times I bit my tongue.
B is for bullshit and you fed me some.
C is for charity and now you're mine.
D is for dollars but you're counting dimes.
E is the exit sign backstage at shows.
F is my favorite letter, as you know.
G is for God loves a patient man,
Who spends his days living in ego-land.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:37pm] |
you are my sweetest downfall
i loved you first
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[05 Jul 2008|10:37pm] |
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oh, you can't get a man with a gun.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:48pm] |
she loves me more than anything,
and she wants the world for me.
her west dropped off in el paso,
and her north in abilene.
mama i'm okay out here,
i've seen how hard the world can be.
my step is sure and i know my name,
i'm strong just like you prayed i'd be.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:49pm] |
trying hard not to hear, but they talk so loud. their piercing sounds fill my ears - try to fill me with doubt. yet i know that the goal is to keep me from falling. but theres nothing greater than the rush that comes with your embrace and in this world of loneliness, i see your face. yet everyone around me thinks that im going crazy.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:53pm] |
after all, were only human - always fighting what were feeling; hurt instead of healing. after all, were only human - is there any other reason why we stay instead of leaving, after all ?
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[05 Jul 2008|10:56pm] |
I just want them to know they didn't break me.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:02pm] |
and the seventh thing
i hate the most
that you do
is make me
love you.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:07pm] |
and now im content with my breath 'cause im alive.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:07pm] |
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would you believe in love at first sight, yes i believe it happens all the time.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:08pm] |
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He was not my boyfriend. On the other hand, he wasn't just a friend either. Instead, our relationship was elastic, stretching between those two extremes depending on who else was around, how much either of us had to drink, and other varying factors. This was exactly what I wanted, as commitments had never really been my thing. And it wasn't like it was hard, either. The only trick was never giving more than you were willing to lose.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:11pm] |
theere's no way out of the trouble you're in. You told her you loved her, more than a friend. Your secrets out, you've flushed your hand. Now she looks at you differently, kinda looks at you differently. So now that you're out there and you don't know what to do, she says, "you blew it kid, you opened your heart up too soon."
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[05 Jul 2008|11:19pm] |
Well it rains and it pours
When you're out on your own
If I crash on the couch
Can I sleep in my clothes?
'Cause I've spent the night dancing
I'm drunk, I suppose
If it looks like I'm laughing
I'm really just asking to leave
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[05 Jul 2008|11:25pm] |
I write mostly on Hotel Paper
Knowing that my thoughts will never leave this room
I'd be out of line telling you, "leave her"
So I lie lonely surrounded by you
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[05 Jul 2008|11:29pm] |
Forgive me if I admit that I'd love to love you
We both realized it way too late
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[05 Jul 2008|11:36pm] |
Cause my self esteem,
it's been low.
Go ahead and count,
it's been lower than low.
And I know the feeling of it stealing
life out from under me.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:44pm] |
I woke up and made it through the day.
I thought of what you always say,
silence doesn't ease the pain,
and violence won't solve a thing.
I'll learn to burn.
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[05 Jul 2008|11:45pm] |
She said "I never really thought I'd need this"
I said "my goal is to be cigarettes to you"
It might sound dangerous but that just means it's worth it
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[05 Jul 2008|11:46pm] |
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I wanna be cool but all that I can be is honest
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[05 Jul 2008|11:48pm] |
I put my heart on the line
But its not mandatory
You know why we fell apart
They don't know half the story
I tried to work it all out
but I was only dreaming
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[05 Jul 2008|11:51pm] |
night all!
journal pls?
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