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[25 May 2008|12:54am] |
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Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you are to become who you will be.
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[25 May 2008|01:09am] |
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i want a girl with lips like morphine, knock me out every time they touch me.
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[25 May 2008|01:17am] |
i hope that you're happy with all that you've done.
do you even know how much you're wrong?
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[25 May 2008|01:19am] |
oh elise, it doesn't matter what you do.
i know i'll never really get inside of you
to make your eyes catch fire the way that they should.
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[25 May 2008|01:21am] |
so go on love,
leave while there's still hope for escape,
gotta take what you can these days.
there's so much ahead
and so much regret.
i know what you want to say,
i know that we can't help feeling differently.
i loved you,
and i should have said it,
but tell me just what has it ever meant.
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[25 May 2008|04:03am] |
man so i just got homefrom my prom after party and here is the series of events from the cab ride home to me sitting here
1) guy beside me in cab, went to prom with my other friend (totally platonic) puts his arm around me (we have never had a real conversation)
2) drop off the people who we shared a cab with, just me, the guy, and the driver.
3?) pulls me towards him so im leaningon his shoulder
4) gets cabbie to drop us off before his house which is before my house "i'll walk you home" he says
5) stop at his house to drop off the quarter-full case of beer he had
6) in his basement/bedroom, pulls me towards him. making out ensues.
7) he walks towards the door, iassume to leave so i can go home. wrong. he turns off the light and tries to pull me towards his bed.
8) i tell him i have to get home cause i have stuff to do tomorrow.
9) walking home, he keeps stopping and we make out. he begins to grope..boobs/butt etc.
10) i force him to continue to walk. while walking he gropes. keeps saying "beep beep" as he squeezes my butt :|
11) finally get to my house, he asks if he'll get to see my room. i say no.
12) more kissing, goodnights. he leaves
13) here i am, still drunk, fucking tired, and needing to tell this to someone.
i would like to add, he had prickles that hurt, this was my first "real" kiss, he's kinda creepy...i dont know what is going to happen tomorrow :S
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[25 May 2008|09:40am] |
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life is good
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[25 May 2008|10:09am] |
who's kissing you tonight?
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[25 May 2008|11:16am] |
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"But, like ivy, we grow where there is room for us. She seemed to have room for me; she never turned away in the pauses that allow for turning away. She never inquired, but she never recoiled, either. This is a quality I look for in a person, not recoiling. Some people need a red carpet rolled out in front of them in order to walk forward into friendship. They can't see the tiny outstretched hands all around them, everywhere, like leaves on a tree."
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[25 May 2008|11:21am] |
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"I wanted to know who she was. Was she terrifyingly beautiful? Was she so ignorant she didn't deserve the truth? Was she also a liar and thus it was something they did together? I don't believe in psychology, which says everything you do is because of yourself. That is so untrue. We are social animals, and everything we do is because of other people, because we love them, or we don't."
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[25 May 2008|11:23am] |
"He reached around and pulled me down onto his back and I lay there, like on the warm sand of a beach. Just that. That is all there is.
That is the whole point of everything."
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[25 May 2008|11:26am] |
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"What a terrible mistake, to let go of something wonderful for something real."
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[25 May 2008|11:27am] |
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"If she left, I would become mute, like those children who have witness horrible atrocities. No one would understand me but those children."
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[25 May 2008|11:28am] |
There comes a time when every life goes off course.
In this desperate moment you must choose your direction.
Will you fight to stay on the path?
Will others tell you who you are?
Or will you label yourself.
Will you be haunted by your choice?
Or will you embrace your new path.
Each morning you choose to move forward.
Or to simply give up.
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[25 May 2008|11:29am] |
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If you spent your life concentrating on what everyone else thought of you, would you forget who you really were? What if the face you showed the world turned out to be a mask... with nothing beneath it?
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[25 May 2008|11:31am] |
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"I stood in the doorway and tried to maintain my end of our silence while watching her scratch at calcified noodles. In truth, I had not yet learned how to hate anyone but my parents. I was actually just standing there in love. I was not even really standing; if she had walked away suddenly, I would have fallen."
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[25 May 2008|11:33am] |
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"I looked at her and for a split second I felt as though she was nobody special in the larger scheme of my life. She was just some girl who had tied me to her leg to help her sink when she jumped off the bridge. Then I blinked and was in love with her again."
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[25 May 2008|11:34am] |
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"I wasn't even totally sure we were broken up until I saw you with her. You seem incredibly faraway to me, like someone on the other side of a lake. A dot so small that it isn't male or female or young or old; it is just smiling."
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[25 May 2008|11:48am] |
within me, it tugs on,
my heartstrings,
and i know,
it's just a sky of silver gray.
just a narrow passageway,
just a song cut off halfway,
just another monday rain.
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[25 May 2008|12:13pm] |
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reply to single m, my name is caroline. cell phone number here, call if you have the time. 28 and bored, grieving over loss. sorry to be heavy, but heavy is the cost, heavy is the cost.
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[25 May 2008|12:15pm] |
the one you love and the one who loves you
are never, ever the same person.
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[25 May 2008|12:17pm] |
would someone please call a surgeon, who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart that you're deserting for better company. i can't accept that it's over, you know i'll block the door like a goalie tending the net in the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry. so just say how to make it right, and i swear i'll do my best to comply. tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better than making you my bride, and slowly growing old together.
i feel i must interject here; you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself with these revisions and gaps in history. so let me help you remember; i'll make charts and graphs that should finally make it clear, i've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave. so, please back away and let me go.
i can't, my darling, i love you so. oh, tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better than making you my bride and slowly growing old together.
don't you feed me lies about some idealistic future; your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures.
i know that i have made mistakes, but i swear i'll never wrong you again.
you've got a lure, i can't deny, but you've had your chance so say goodbye; say goodbye.
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[25 May 2008|12:28pm] |
Everywhere I look
There is something there to remind me
Of feelings from yesterday
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[25 May 2008|12:29pm] |
You are my friend first
We talk about what hurts
We talk about love
Let's talk about us
Can't you see
I want you to be mine
What matters the most
I just want to see you up close
When I look into your heart
You got everything I want
Can't you see I want you to be mine?
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[25 May 2008|12:30pm] |
Turn the music up
Riding on the highway
Thinking about the way
That I feel when I'm with you
A feeling that continues
To make me feel good
Even when I'm not near you
And I want it to stay
Emotions, I have so many
Love can give you plenty
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[25 May 2008|12:33pm] |
Everything he does
All of the the above
Didn't know it 'till I fell in love
Fits me like a glove
Do you know
Can't you see I want you to be mine?
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[25 May 2008|12:39pm] |
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it's gotten late and now i want to be alone. all of our friends were here, they all have gone home. and here i sit on the front porch, watching the drunks stumble forth into the night. you gave me a heart attack, i did not see you there. i thought you had disappeared so early away from here. and this is the chance i never got to make a move but we just talk about the people we've met in the last five years, and will we remember them in ten more? i let you bum a smoke, you quit the winter past. i have tried twice before but like this it just would not last.
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[25 May 2008|12:43pm] |
i pray for your protection,
heaven bound and glory be.
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[25 May 2008|12:46pm] |
he's in love with tragedy, in love with tragedy. she was a wreck but he loved her,
she was a wreck but so was he.
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[25 May 2008|12:50pm] |
if you'd call my name out loud, if you'd call my name out loud, do you suppose that i would come running? do you suppose i'd come at
all? i suppose i would.
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[25 May 2008|01:09pm] |
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yay. new username!
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[25 May 2008|01:27pm] |
I'll never beg
I'll never plead
I'll never fall down to my knees
But I never said I was better off on my own
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[25 May 2008|01:46pm] |
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he said, at school they taught me a prayer for money, a prayer for crap jobs right 'til i die. never a prayer for my people, the broken-hearted, the lonely.
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[25 May 2008|01:54pm] |
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tie a string around my finger to remind me to love you. and when i'm a country away, i'll be thinking of you. and years from now, when i'm sharing a bed with a body, at least i'll pretend that it's you.
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[25 May 2008|02:06pm] |
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journal please? :)
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[25 May 2008|02:26pm] |
"You can spend minutes, hours, days, or even
months over-analying a situation,
trying to put the pieces together, justifying
what could've, would've happened..
or you can just leave the pieces on the floor
and move the fuck on."
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[25 May 2008|02:28pm] |
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"It's much easier to talk to other people and not look at him than it is to look at him talking to other people."
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[25 May 2008|02:37pm] |
If you turn your back
I'm not coming back.
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[25 May 2008|02:43pm] |
I wish that you were here once more with me in the night somewhere
Loveless days and grey eyed mornings
Pass beneath the window of another dreary day
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[25 May 2008|02:48pm] |
She pulls the darkness shut
behind her and says goodnight...
She's not coming back
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[25 May 2008|02:49pm] |
hush, hush, hush....
this is where it ends.
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[25 May 2008|02:58pm] |
there's no need for depression,
and no, i don't have the blues.
just wouldn't want to go to heaven
if i can't go there with you.
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[25 May 2008|03:07pm] |
she always weighed me down
but afraid i might need her
i dragged her around
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[25 May 2008|03:08pm] |
my every medicine caused more illness
and a hard rain's gonna fall
but until i let you go, i didn't know
you were never mine at all
but now i spend my days
in ever-increasingly complicated ways
convincing myself of the rightness
of each word i say
my exit, unfair if unobserved
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[25 May 2008|03:18pm] |
there's a few things
that I just need you to know:
the way i felt when we were close
and how the stars explode
everytime you are near.
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[25 May 2008|03:19pm] |
grow up and blow away
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[25 May 2008|04:42pm] |
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
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[25 May 2008|04:44pm] |
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I wish it didn't hurt, hurt like this to say these things to you. I'll sacrifice one moment for one truth. If we get through tomorrow then we'll be fine. We'll wait for forever and see how close we get. Just another day, one more chance to get this right. I'll sacrifice forever, please, just for tonight.
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[25 May 2008|05:06pm] |
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hellOooooOo
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[25 May 2008|06:11pm] |
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On days like this I can sit and stare at nothing and see you in everything.
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[25 May 2008|06:16pm] |
You said it makes you wanna fall in love,
or be smart enough to keep your distance.
You can't decide.
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[25 May 2008|06:18pm] |
Everybody tries to put some love on the line
Everybody has a broken heart sometimes.
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[25 May 2008|06:19pm] |
"She'll never fit in."
"I don't want her to."
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[25 May 2008|06:21pm] |
Soon his burdens will be mine,
Soon this love will set us free.
All my hope lies with him now,
I'm going to marry that boy, oh lord.
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[25 May 2008|06:22pm] |
I was hoping you would be waiting there for me lately, but you're not the kind who would be waiting.
Not for anybody.
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[25 May 2008|06:24pm] |
750 degrees:
When it burned, it smelled like you
But it scorched and looked a lot like me.
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[25 May 2008|06:30pm] |
She wouldn't stop,
Made it drop,
Shawty did that pop and lock.
WAKE UP EL. =]
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[25 May 2008|06:32pm] |
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Nothing unusual, nothing strange, close to nothing at all. The same old scenario, same old rain, and there's no explosions here. Then, something unusual, something strange, comes from nothing at all.
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[25 May 2008|06:34pm] |
I took Atlantic home tonight,
and every neon light and sign spelt out your name.
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[25 May 2008|06:37pm] |
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you'll think of me
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[25 May 2008|06:37pm] |
This is a story.
It's not that interesting, but it's true. For the most part. In many ways, it's about being gone, for a long time, from home, from anywhere, really.
Gone.
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[25 May 2008|06:40pm] |
oh look, you've earned your wings,
are you an angel now,
or a vulture?
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[25 May 2008|06:50pm] |
i don't see how you could be anything but mine
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[25 May 2008|06:55pm] |
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oic. so i have strep. awesome.
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[25 May 2008|07:04pm] |
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I met God this afternoon, riding on an uptown train. I said, "Don't you have better things to do?"
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[25 May 2008|07:05pm] |
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We are young and impulsive, reckless and smooth, starving for passion to feed the broken and the bruised.
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[25 May 2008|07:06pm] |
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Tonight, let's just drive to the places that we've never been before. Tonight, let's be young, we can forget about tomorrow.
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[25 May 2008|07:18pm] |
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"of course i love you,
and of course it's what's inside that matters"
but i think the whole charade is ending
it seems to me to be the only way to keep from getting
caught up in a long line of regretting
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[25 May 2008|07:46pm] |
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"There was no apology in her eyes, no love or caring. But she saw me, I existed, and this lifted the beams off my shoulders. It takes so little."
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[25 May 2008|07:47pm] |
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"We wanted to know, we really wanted to know, all the unknowable things about each other and how we were the same and how we were different, if we even were, maybe nobody is. We wanted to strike lightning in the dark waters, to see, if only for a second, the entire world that lives down there, the ten million species in amazing colors and patterns; show us life, now."
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[25 May 2008|07:49pm] |
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"When she saw my messy desk, she said she was the same way, and there was no dust on the TV, and I was easy to love. People just need a little help, because they are so used to not loving."
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[25 May 2008|07:50pm] |
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"I laughed and said, 'Life is easy.' What I meant was, 'Life is easy with you here, and when you leave, it will be hard again.'"
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[25 May 2008|07:57pm] |
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when you finally fade from those nights you spend doing God only knows with your new friends, when you decide to come back, you always can.
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[25 May 2008|07:58pm] |
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oh, our lives are seperate roads, we've picked our seperate ways, but this love i've found reminds me every day that i still believe in you. i still have faith. i have faith that you'll find your way and realize your mistakes 'cause i can't handle another night alone.
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[25 May 2008|07:59pm] |
“Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away”
k who loves Sex and the City.
cause srsly, this friday the movie is out
umm yay !I'm excitedd
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[25 May 2008|08:01pm] |
but i need the ocean or it's sand
or the high that i felt when you first held my hand.
and honey i just can't feel right alone. Alone.
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[25 May 2008|08:06pm] |
i'm looking forward to looking back on these days.
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[25 May 2008|08:12pm] |
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it's hard to explain how i am getting by, on so little from you.
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[25 May 2008|08:16pm] |
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hear me laugh or see me smile but know inside my heart is breaking.
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[25 May 2008|08:17pm] |
i know someone sings the song, the song of your heart, i guess i didn't have the voice and i'm sorry.
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[25 May 2008|08:31pm] |
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those lips that said i love you, kissed him and said we're through.
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[25 May 2008|08:34pm] |
Why don't you come right out and say it?
Even if the words are probably gonna hurt
I'd rather have the truth than something insincere
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[25 May 2008|08:41pm] |
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"You men have no idea what we're dealing with down there. Teeth placement, and jaw stress, and suction, and gag reflex, and all the while bobbing up and down, moaning and trying to breathe through our noses. Easy? Honey, they don't call it a job for nothin'."
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[25 May 2008|09:08pm] |
i want to be a hippie
but i forgot how to
love
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[25 May 2008|09:19pm] |
i dont know what it is
but you got me good
just like i knew you would
i dont know what you do
but you do it well
im under your spell
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[25 May 2008|09:54pm] |
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i rly need EL to not be ~ded tonight. pls?
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[25 May 2008|10:18pm] |
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it just matters that people believe.
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[25 May 2008|10:43pm] |
i feel so stupid now that we are apart, you've got a boyfriend. i've got a broken heart. i'm glad you're happy, i know he plays on varsity but do you still miss me when everything is quiet in your room? if you could give me one more chance, i swear i'd give anything to be with you. if you could only turn my way again, don't fall in love with someone new, someone new.
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[25 May 2008|10:51pm] |
What we have here is a dreamer, someone completely out of touch with reality.
When she jumped, she probably thought she would fly.
I'm watchin final destination 2
&for sum reason those movies rly scare me !
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[25 May 2008|10:54pm] |
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oh, i couldn't find a better man to let me go.
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[25 May 2008|11:01pm] |
open the door,
walk in behind her
draw back the curtain
let it remind her
no one's around,
no need to fake it
she's not in love,
how can she take it?
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[25 May 2008|11:07pm] |
Well I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you're not around
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[25 May 2008|11:10pm] |
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oh, did i mention that when i see you it stings like hell to the fact that we could have something that will never happen
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[25 May 2008|11:12pm] |
"I'm here for you" she said
and we can stay for awhile,
my boyfriend's gone,
we can just pretend.
Lips that need no introduction
Now who's the greater sin,
Your drab eyes seem to invite
tell me darling, where do we begin.
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[25 May 2008|11:14pm] |
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One step forward, Two steps back. I know, I know it's a bad cliche, But suffice to say that it's exactly where I'm at
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[25 May 2008|11:18pm] |
I should have known we'd never get anywhere,
Can't fall in love when you're falling apart,
Can't make amends if you're only making mistakes,
And empty words can't fix a broken heart
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[25 May 2008|11:19pm] |
Cause in my head there’s a greyhound station
Where I send my thoughts to far off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place
where they’re far more suited than here
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[25 May 2008|11:25pm] |
dear, i fear we're facing a problem.
you love me no longer, i know
and maybe there is nothing
that i can do to make you do.
mama tells me i shouldn't bother
that i ought just stick to another man
a man that surely deserves me
but i think you do.
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[25 May 2008|11:25pm] |
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So I stay in bed crying. I'd rather cry to lifeless heirlooms than assume somebody cares
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