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[08 May 2008|12:00am] |
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"Every morning I still wake up and the first thing I want to do is to see your face."
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[08 May 2008|12:36am] |
I promised you the world again
Everything within my hands
All the riches one could dream
They will come from me
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[08 May 2008|12:39am] |
I woke up this morning,
to a battle in the sky.
The only light before me,
Is coming from your eyes.
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[08 May 2008|12:43am] |
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I guess your kind of truth is just the ghost of your lies
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[08 May 2008|12:44am] |
And if you wait for me,
I'll be the light in the dark if you lose your way.
And if you wait for me,
I'll be your voice when you don't know what to say.
I'll be your shelter,
I'll be your fate.
I'll be forever,
wait for me.
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[08 May 2008|12:50am] |
Pickin up the pieces
Of the wreck you went and left
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[08 May 2008|12:55am] |
Something about those bright colors
always made you feel better.
So now we speak with ruined tongues
and the words we say aren’t meant for anyone.
It’s just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance
but there was once you said
you hated my suffering and you understood
and you’d take care of me.
You would always be there,
well where are you now?
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[08 May 2008|01:09am] |
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Now I do as I please and I lie through my teeth, someone might get hurt, but it won't be me, Should probably feel cheap, but I just feel free and a little bit empty.
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[08 May 2008|01:56am] |
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i'm still studying for my math final and it's already like 2 a.m and my final is at 8:30 am. greattttt.
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[08 May 2008|08:07am] |
His touch brought with it the strangest sense of relief-
as if I'd been in pain and that pain had suddenly ceased.
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[08 May 2008|08:33am] |
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we’re in one of the richest countries in the world, and yet the minimum wage is lower than it was thirty five years ago. there are homeless people everywhere. this homeless guy asked me for money the other day. i was about to give it to him, and then i thought he was going to use it on drugs or alcohol. and then i thought, that’s what i’m gonna to use it on. why am i judging this poor bastard? people love to judge homeless guys. like if you give them money they’re just going to waste it. he's gonna waste the money. well, he lives in a box, what do you want him to do? save it up and buy a wall unit? take a little run to the store for a throw rug and a CD rack? he’s homeless. i walked behind this guy the other day, a homeless guy asking for money. he looks right at the homeless guy and says, "why don’t you go get a job, you bum?" people always say that to homeless guys, "get a job," like it's always that easy. this homeless guy was wearing his underwear outside his pants. i’m guessing his resume isn’t all up to date. i’m predicting some problems during the interview process. i’m pretty sure even mcdonalds has an “underwear goes inside the pants” policy. not that they enforce it very strictly, but technically, i’m sure it's on the books.
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[08 May 2008|09:12am] |
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we have to put my dog to sleep today. we've had her since i was five :(
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[08 May 2008|09:20am] |
i'm tired of this distance and i believe it's over, it's overrated. and this phone tag game is endless, the novelty is wearing. i'm hoping time will pass without any assistance or convincing. road rules apply. there's so much action, you're getting busy. so i'll call your cellular phone to tell you tv night was lonely without you, and so am i.
so am i.
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[08 May 2008|10:06am] |
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is it possible for the world to look this way forever?
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[08 May 2008|10:19am] |
And I swear we're in a movie
the highlight comes when you kiss me
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[08 May 2008|10:21am] |
Jesus Christ, I’m alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
Because this problem is gonna last
More than the weekend
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[08 May 2008|11:34am] |
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"There should be a statute of limitation on grief. A rule book that says it is all right to wake up crying, but only for a month. That after forty-two days you will no longer turn with your heart racing, certain you have heard him call out your name."
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[08 May 2008|11:44am] |
But basically, we're both in love with you.
I am was just a dog-eared page you would turn back to.
Where's the place for me when we're both in love with you?
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[08 May 2008|11:50am] |
And I paint you on the wall,
Yellow, red, green and brown.
I miss you all the time,
But i'm blocking it out.
"Are you better?"
No, never, never.
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[08 May 2008|11:57am] |
I think about the night I met you.
I swore I'd never forget you.
Well, I won't.
I think about the way you'll live and breathe inside my dreams forever.
You'll be better when I'm gone.
You'll be better when I'm gone.
Because I know you're going to fall in love again.
I'm sorry this is how it has to end.
But when you think of me,
Remember the way that I used to be.
Remember the times i held you tenderly.
Remember the way that I love you.
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[08 May 2008|12:39pm] |
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ok ty guys.
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[08 May 2008|12:53pm] |
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"Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me. "
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[08 May 2008|12:57pm] |
i'm only me
when i'm with you
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[08 May 2008|12:59pm] |
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OK FUCK AP ENGLISH TBH
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[08 May 2008|01:18pm] |
you're tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone.
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[08 May 2008|01:19pm] |
i guess it's true that love is all you wanted
'cause you're giving it away like it's extra change
hoping it will end up in his pocket
but he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
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[08 May 2008|01:41pm] |
play me a song,
your newest one.
please leave your taste on my tongue.
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[08 May 2008|01:41pm] |
if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again.
and you can tell me how vile i already know that i am.
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[08 May 2008|01:42pm] |
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i talk out loud like you're still around.
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[08 May 2008|01:44pm] |
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i'm pouring myself some whiskey..
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[08 May 2008|01:53pm] |
I am falling down
try and stop me
it feels so good to hit the ground
you can watch me
falling on my face
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[08 May 2008|02:07pm] |
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"It's been a year. I don't feel him anymore. I feel he's gone. He's really gone."
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[08 May 2008|02:13pm] |
I’ll wait for you in the back of my car,
Lets find out who you really are.
I’ll never change if you want me to,
You better change if I ask you.
So tell me what is the matter with this,
They say it starts with just one kiss.
We’re never gonna be here a again.
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[08 May 2008|02:17pm] |
you can wipe off the grin, I know where you've been
It's all been a pack of lies
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[08 May 2008|02:19pm] |
All I've wanted
All I've needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
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[08 May 2008|02:23pm] |
We might fall
We might fall
We might fall
Hallie, we might fall
We might fall
We might fall
We might fall
Hallie, we might fall
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[08 May 2008|02:32pm] |
Oh you said love was forever and you told me
love would never break my heart,
and I believed you as I fell
That's all over, let it go,
You're just a song I used to know
And your fantasy, it don't work for me
Go and pick on someone else
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[08 May 2008|02:35pm] |
Everyday is a struggle between what I wanna say
And what I should keep to myself
And the words that manage to leave my lips
Don't hurt me, but they hurt everyone else
And I find myself in need of a pause
I'm not sure why, but I think that it's because
Of this desire to be what others want me to be
which is nothing close to me
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[08 May 2008|03:08pm] |
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i just got my prom jewelry for $3 jsyak.
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[08 May 2008|03:19pm] |
if you need to crash, just crash and burn
you're not alone.
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[08 May 2008|03:21pm] |
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do my journal~
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[08 May 2008|03:27pm] |
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or you could do mine.
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[08 May 2008|03:29pm] |
don't you ever leave me baby
don't you ever leave my now
don't you ever leave me baby
if you leave me you will kill me now
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[08 May 2008|03:31pm] |
then you came along like my own ray of sunshine
and made me feel warm, safe and alive again
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[08 May 2008|03:35pm] |
recall the times we met - so wild and free
we had our ups and we had our downs
but the sweet sweet rock'n'roll always played on the radio
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[08 May 2008|03:38pm] |
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haha got the parenting baby..
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[08 May 2008|03:49pm] |
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"You see when something's not working right, the best thing to do is tear it apart to make it better."
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[08 May 2008|04:16pm] |
"Love is a spark of divinity. There is salvation in love because it is the thing that unites us all. Love is the spark of divinity that is, in essence, life; that is found everywhere. It don't matter that it's transient, it don't matter that it often breaks our hearts, all that matters is that we can all share it in the moment."
also, i now have an anon journal being as i'm new and all, i thought it would be a good way of people getting to know me/ me getting to know people... yeh.
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[08 May 2008|04:17pm] |
and
giving yourself to me
could never be wrong,
if the love is true.
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[08 May 2008|04:22pm] |
and i feel good about the future
and this clarity i've never had.
you are the bounce in my step,
the burst of blood in my chest,
the prayer i've kept in my head.
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[08 May 2008|04:24pm] |
i am planning my
wedding. lmao
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[08 May 2008|04:43pm] |
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also xcz me but why are lj-cuts being gay
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[08 May 2008|04:46pm] |
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I think that I'm just scared to live
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[08 May 2008|04:56pm] |
Dear Roberta Sparrow,
I have reached the end of your book and there are so many things that I need to ask you. Sometimes I'm afraid of what you might tell me. Sometimes I'm afraid that you'll tell me that this is not a work of fiction. I can only hope that the answers will come to me in my sleep. I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to.
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[08 May 2008|05:10pm] |
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I am not going to sit on my ass as the events that affect me unfold to determine the course of my life. I'm going to take a stand. I'm going to defend it. Right or wrong, I'm going to defend it.
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[08 May 2008|05:15pm] |
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Life goes by pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it
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[08 May 2008|05:22pm] |
"I know this isn't the life you would've chosen. But is the life that has chosen you. And you cannot deny the possibility that some other force is guiding you, choosing what you see."
"Just say his name Reverend, I know you're dying to."
"Destiny, Johnny. It is your destiny to help people. I truly believe that."
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[08 May 2008|05:25pm] |
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"You... don't... want me?" I tried out the words, confused by the way they sounded placed in that order. I stared, uncomprehending into his eyes. He stared back without apology. His eyes were like topaz- hard and clear and very deep. I felt like I could see into them for miles and miles, yet nowhere in their bottomless depths could I see contradiction to the word he'd spoken.
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[08 May 2008|05:30pm] |
fade in, start the scene,
enter beautiful girl,
but things are not what they seem.
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[08 May 2008|05:31pm] |
you make it sound so easy to be alive.
tell me how am i supposed to seize this day
when everything inside of me has died.
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[08 May 2008|05:39pm] |
does he lay awake listening to your breath,
worried you smoke too many cigarettes?
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[08 May 2008|05:39pm] |
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journal.
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[08 May 2008|05:40pm] |
he had eyes bright enough to burn me.
they reminded me of yours.
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[08 May 2008|05:43pm] |
i will not weep for those dying days
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[08 May 2008|05:45pm] |
my words they don't come out right
but i'll try to say i'm happy for you.
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[08 May 2008|05:45pm] |
i guess i'm your big mistake
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[08 May 2008|05:46pm] |
I felt the smooth wooden floor beneath my knees, and then the palms of my hands, and then it was pressed against the skin of my cheek. I hoped that I was fainting, but, to my disappointment, I didn't lose consciousness. The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under.
I did not resurface.
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[08 May 2008|05:48pm] |
so if your lover should leave, don't get too sad,
and don't compose epic poems to win her back
'cause when your bird has flown,
she'll never return home.
though all your life you'll wait, she never will return.
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[08 May 2008|05:50pm] |
I could not do anything else. I had to keep moving. If I stopped looking for him, it was over.
Love, life, meaning... over.
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[08 May 2008|05:52pm] |
so when the wind blows strong,
i put a few more layers on,
and i tell myself i don't care.
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[08 May 2008|05:56pm] |
quit acting so friendly
don't nod don't laugh all nicely
don't think you'll up-end me
don't sigh, don't sip your iced-tea
and don't say, 'it's been a while...'
and don't flash that stupid smile
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[08 May 2008|05:59pm] |
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God is love. Love is blind. Stevie Wonder is blind. Therefore, Stevie Wonder is God.
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[08 May 2008|06:00pm] |
i want you to take me closer
i want you to make me suffer
i want you to wear me out
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[08 May 2008|06:01pm] |
There once was a man named McCain,
Who had the whole White House to gain,
But he was quite a hobbyist,
Of boning his lobbyist,
So much for his '08 campaign.
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[08 May 2008|06:02pm] |
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Here is how scientists say the water cycle works: First, the sun causes ground water to evaporate which then condenses into clouds; then Feminists and taxes make God cry and the ocean gets replenished.
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[08 May 2008|06:04pm] |
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so, i'm in walmart and the baby starts balling it's eyes out and it's still crying when i try to get into my car so i give my mom the mcdonalds and her cart starts to go down near a car so she drops the mcdonalds and the fries go all over the place. then my sisters like "who's phone is this?" it was jakes freekin cordless HOUSE phone wtf it was in the babys stroller thing. :\ and the baby still wont shutup
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[08 May 2008|06:06pm] |
and i cannot help but hold onto a handful of times when what was spoken was a revolution in itself, and what we were doing was the only thing that mattered, and how good it felt to kill the memory of nights spent holding your shirt for the smell.
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[08 May 2008|06:23pm] |
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It was a crippling thing, this sensation that a huge hole had been punctured through my chest, excising my most vital organs and leaving ragged, unhealed gashes around the edges that continued to throb and bled despite the passage of time. Rationally, I knew my lungs must still be intact, yet I gasped for air and my head spun like my efforts yielded me nothing. My heart must have been beating, too, but I couldn't hear the sound of my pulse in my ears; my hands felt blue with cold. I curled inward, hugging my ribs to hold myself together. I scrambled for my numbness, my denial, but it evaded me.
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[08 May 2008|06:28pm] |
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nobody wants to be alone, so how did i get here? when i look at you, i see him staring through.awake and a smile, because he's been inside of you. is he all the things you tried to change me into? is he everything to you?
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[08 May 2008|06:30pm] |
love is all around you, your universe is full
but in my world, there is only you.
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[08 May 2008|06:34pm] |
Well, I can't explain why it's not enough,
cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do, it's time to surrender,
it's been been too long pretending.
There's no use in trying, when the pieces don't fit anymore.
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[08 May 2008|06:38pm] |
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i go back to the loss of a real good friend,
and the sixteen summers i shared with him.
now 'only the good die young' stops me in my tracks.
everytime i hear that song, i go back.
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[08 May 2008|06:39pm] |
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i can still find the smell on my clothes and skin. i can still see your face, when you're sleeping next to him.
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[08 May 2008|06:44pm] |
We're covering up our tracks
And living in secrets
We can learn to love life
Or learn to love pain
And if you still hear my voice
Than give me a sign, let me know
You're still here, like it or not
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[08 May 2008|06:44pm] |
there must be a name for it, whatever this is you've done to me,
i'm all twisted up inside. well, who's gonna pay for it?
if it's not you, i guess it's me, you left with your life and took mine.
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[08 May 2008|06:45pm] |
You're cold but you're beautiful
You're a mess but I like it that way
I'm a fool, but only a fool knows a miracle
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[08 May 2008|06:47pm] |
The best is when you say the worst is over
It's like saying we had luck with a three leaf clover
And you kept saying that over and over
And I still catch you looking over your shoulder
And it's okay, I know the only times you really loved me
Were the times when you weren't sober
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[08 May 2008|06:48pm] |
His curse is the poison on her lips
A love as certain as a sinking ship
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[08 May 2008|06:49pm] |
You're so unpredictable and I'm so typical
I tried to sell you a heart before you saw the world
I will sing a melody until the fluid starts choking me
And when my eyes are paralyzed I'll stare up at you my star
That I could never reach
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[08 May 2008|06:50pm] |
I wanna overdose on a kiss
Leaving me lifeless
Will you be my drug?
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[08 May 2008|06:52pm] |
And I'd love to forgive and forget
So I tried to put all this behind us
Just know that my arms are wide open
The older I get the more that I know
Well it's time to let this go.
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[08 May 2008|06:53pm] |
Love is just another word for pain
It's a broken record repeating the same thing
When you want it it's not there
When you have it you don't care
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[08 May 2008|06:55pm] |
Deception, depression is all that I've got
And but who said love was fair?
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[08 May 2008|06:56pm] |
And I'm giving up on happy endings
The ones that are only in movies
Where the guy gets the girl and everybody's happy
I think that's the way it should be
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[08 May 2008|06:56pm] |
i can't get that sound you make out of my head
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[08 May 2008|06:57pm] |
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if life's not beautiful without the pain, i'd rather never ever even see beauty again. as life gets longer awful feels softer. and it feels pretty soft to me.
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[08 May 2008|07:00pm] |
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I can't take anymore, I don't have to give you a reason for leaving this time.
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[08 May 2008|07:01pm] |
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there were many talents you possessed that i wished myself to have. but the way your eyes would gloss over, well i never envied that.
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[08 May 2008|07:03pm] |
buy me a drink,
sing me a song,
take me as i come 'cause i can't stay long.
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[08 May 2008|07:10pm] |
So many times I tried to be much more than who I am.
And if I let you down I will follow you 'round until you understand.
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[08 May 2008|07:11pm] |
this was a choice
this was never a mistake
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[08 May 2008|07:15pm] |
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I'm so tired of being alone so hurry up and get here.
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[08 May 2008|07:16pm] |
i held onto you with a desperate strength
with everything, with everything in me
i handed you a drink of the lovely little thing
on which our survival depends
people say friends don't destroy one another
what do they know about friends?
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[08 May 2008|07:20pm] |
do his hands in your hair feel a lot like a thing you believe in?
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[08 May 2008|07:30pm] |
i wanted to catch you to satisfy my hunger for hunting something down
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[08 May 2008|07:32pm] |
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how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you?
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[08 May 2008|07:39pm] |
so when you said
you'd follow me wherever i'd go
well that scared the hell out of me
i thought you should know
cause why oh why would someone follow around a bag of bones?
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[08 May 2008|08:02pm] |
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ahh i took my AP exam and all my stress is gone :]
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[08 May 2008|08:07pm] |
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has anyone seen losing isaiah
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[08 May 2008|08:12pm] |
does anyone know any screamo songs that aren't sung by popular bands?
thanks :)
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[08 May 2008|08:16pm] |
it honestly was beautifully done, we'd tried to hide the daylight from the sun. even if we had been sure enough it's true, we really didn't know. even if we knew which way to head but still we probably wouldn't go
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[08 May 2008|08:19pm] |
when i'm dancing with you, tomorrow doesn't matter. turn that music up 'til the windows start to shatter
because you're the only one that can get me on my feet and i can't even dance.
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[08 May 2008|09:02pm] |
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Little stranger girl, you are home tonight.
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[08 May 2008|09:09pm] |
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hey everyonee :]
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[08 May 2008|09:15pm] |
SPEAKING OF APS~
is anyone else taking euro tomorrow? or art history next week? or vergil? or am i alone in this vast universe :(
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[08 May 2008|09:19pm] |
Baby your love,
it just ain't good enough.
I found sunlight six hours away
You watered me down 'til I drifted abound
Somewhere far from your shade
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[08 May 2008|09:21pm] |
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I'm nicotine, I'm coming clean, I fooled the crowd when I made it sound like I was more then ready. Strike up the band, deprive my sleep cause theres no love like apathy.
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[08 May 2008|09:25pm] |
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the need to fit in is harder when living life from a screen.
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[08 May 2008|09:32pm] |
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We could be like onions and peppers in a sleeping bag fajita. We could be anything you want the way you're busting out of that wife-beater. And I know it's a bit uncomfortable here in this 2-door seater, but you're just the right size, and I will always feed you and feed you and feed you...
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[08 May 2008|09:36pm] |
i hope the weather holds,
but you don't need the sun to make you shine.
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[08 May 2008|09:37pm] |
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OMG LOST IN 23 MINUTES
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[08 May 2008|09:38pm] |
midnight on a beach in the mediterranean
and i miss you
even here, taking it all in
the sand's silver carries the moon on it's shoulders
is it possible to put this night to tune and move it to you?
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[08 May 2008|09:53pm] |
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I'm filling in the empty spaces where you left your mark. In the soothing peace of car alarms and cats in heat, I can hear you breathe.
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[08 May 2008|10:01pm] |
Sexy can I...just pardon my manners.
goodnight! even though im going to be up with this baby all night. wonderful :(
oh, do my journal!
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[08 May 2008|10:05pm] |
I want you back
This means untouched and intact
you always were so critical
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[08 May 2008|10:19pm] |
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"I want to be another body part you need."
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[08 May 2008|10:23pm] |
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"But what are you supposed to do when the memories of your past are preventing you from making new ones?"
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[08 May 2008|10:33pm] |
Where could I turn from you
The darkest nights, you know you'd find a way
What else have I to do?
What words are there left to say?
You are the air that I breathe in
Here is my heart I give
You are all of my reason
You are my reason to live
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[08 May 2008|10:39pm] |
I meant it all and every part
And every word right from the start
I'll never let this love fall in the middle
through it all
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[08 May 2008|10:44pm] |
I can be the wall when you fall down
Find me on the rocks when you break down
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[08 May 2008|11:17pm] |
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okay i am terrified
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[08 May 2008|11:21pm] |
What am I doing here
If you're not with me?
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[08 May 2008|11:32pm] |
Tear my eyes right out,
I'd rather see you without them anyway.
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[08 May 2008|11:33pm] |
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I was born to love him and I will never be free.
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[08 May 2008|11:45pm] |
If we weren't such good friends,
I think that I'd hate you.
If we weren't such good friends,
I'd wish you were dead.
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