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Nov 8th, 09 @ 1pm
]

teliamac
brenna and i drove to oskaloosa, iowa, and back yesterday. it was epic.

and now all i want to do is sleep.
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Womp Womp [
Nov 8th, 09 @ 2pm
]

missmarymarch
Last night was intense. I'll have photo evidence soon. Freaks mobbed the stage, hippies on my neck, dub steppin all over that floor. I think I sprained my toe. Throwing it down hard, I was hanging off the balcony railing throwing my chest into it. Good Lord, that BASS was divine. Sweaty bodies everywhere, that crowd was collectively swimming against the beat. Making some room up there in the front meant a lot of elbows in the air. Lorin Aston, I will have your illegitimate children.

When I pulled my shirt out of my bag, it was wet. The whole back of my party pack was wet from me sweating on it all night.
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Nov 8th, 09 @ 11am
]

kikinryan
Well already cleaned the livingroom, Hannah's room, my room, started laundry, put all the clean dishes away, cleaned all the TV screens, made the beds, cleaned out the fridge, now I'm taking a break while the sinks are being bleached. YAY!! I think I might clean my bathroom still. I need to clean up the laundry room, wash the floors, but I'm gonna wait til the laundry is finished in there.
Then for the rest of the day I'm going to relax. YAY!! And I'm not even stressed about the cleaning today b/c it's not really much.
Last night Ry and I went to a wedding reception, it was alright. The music kinda sucked... but the food spread was amazing!! hahaha. I think I had like 2-3 plate fulls... cheese, pickles, veggie pizza, turkey, carrots.. yup.. the yummy food!! I didn't really care for the veggie pizza, the crust was too thick and very dry, but whatever, I only had 2 pcs, then none after that. I couldn't stay away from the cheese, carrots, and turkey... hahaha. I haven't had turkey since this summer... it was delicious.
Anyways I need to go get ready for the day... may drag my kiddo in the tub with me.
♥ Kelly
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north star. fish. [
Nov 8th, 09 @ 12am
]

pupthechihuahua
"If my heart was a compass, you would be north."
Only 3 people have permission to break me.
I'd give it all,
Just to make him saturated in the love instead of the lies my generation has been told.
Starfish, you are always going to be worth it. You are always going to be good enough. I promise. That everything is going to be okay.

No matter what.

"See the way He holds the stars in his hands.
See the way He holds my heart."
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Nov 8th, 09 @ 12am
]

absolutelyjessa
Something has changed within me; something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game
Too late for second guessing; too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts, close my eyes...and leap...
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Permafrost not so permanent with global warming [
Nov 7th, 09 @ 8pm
]

glaciercrow
NEW - Surface permafrost may vanish in Alaska
FAIRBANKS, Alaska (AP) — An Alaska permafrost researcher says the state probably will see most of its surface permafrost vanish by the end of the century.

But University of Alaska Fairbanks Professor Vladimir Romanovsky says vast areas of frozen soil likely will remain deeper underground even as air temperatures increase.

Alaska's permafrost is being watched closely.

Unstable, thawing permafrost can cause damage to buildings and other infrastructure.

There are also climate implications. Thawing permafrost can release locked up greenhouse gases that may contribute to global warming.

Romanovsky says dozens of bore holes are being monitored to see how permafrost reacts to changing temperatures.
(Fairbanks Daily News-Miner)
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Nov 7th, 09 @ 9pm
]

foxypawz
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hola hello hey whats up? [
Nov 7th, 09 @ 8pm
]

izzuezgalore
so i'm at work right now...kinda bored...not kinda, a lot. just noticing how the whole being an RA has changed this semester...if we were sick we had to suck it up last year..but now people can do whatever they want "i'm sick" is like an easy pass for getting out of rounds..i would like to say bull shit to that..how is that fair? i'm done with rounds this semester but let me get sick next semester and try to use the whole "i'm sick so i can't do rounds" and see how that goes b/c if they say anything than i have a stockpile of shit to throw at them...how can u say that i can't but u let a shit load of people get out of rounds by claiming they were sick? bulll shitttt.

other than that my day is going...its not as productive as i would have liked it to be..i really want to finish these papers well i NEED to finish these papers considering they are due next week on tues and thurs to be exact so there is gonna be some late nights in my near future...crap. i should have brought an energy drink considering coffee doesn't do anything for me or maybe its because i want it to help so much that my brain is psyching me out...or that u have to psych ur brain out in order for the coffee to have any effect...either way i need to work on psyching my brain out b/c i will be finishing this eight page paper at least a day before its due..as long as i have enough time to go to the writing center and have them check it....BLAH. so i'm going to have to stay up today to work on it b/c i did nothing this whole day well i guess i did something...i found more information but other than that i did nothing. so i need to start on that..hopefully these eight pages won't take forever. crossing my fingers.

okay so i may need to be nicer to people...just a tad bit b/c i am kinda mean/rude but its not my fault people are annoying and way to slow for me to deal with them like sometimes i just wanna smack people upside their head and ask them if they heard what they just said/did/hinted at/etc
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Nov 7th, 09 @ 5pm
]

rk86_05
Women are too fuckin' confusing. Or maybe it's just me. Who knows...? Although I'm in Muskego with some of the best people in the world, but I'm a little irked off... I'm not a clingy person. At all. I'm too relaxed about relationships. Maybe a little too relaxed. I don't care about relationships and impressing people. That's not me. I hate PDA and cuddling with someone who I don't have extremely strong feelings.

Fuck me.

I'd do anything to be normal, and not have to worry about inhibitions, personal barriers, and weaknesses.
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Nov 7th, 09 @ 1pm
]

cinnisugar_liar
i'm getting pretty fed up with my landlady never answering her phone, or promising to come by "later this week" and never does. my closet leaks when it rains, there's been a leaky faucet costing us money SINCE WE MOVED IN, our boiler is broke so we have no heat, and now we've found that the flies and bad smells filling our house is due to a flooded basement. and why is the basement flooded? BECAUSE THERE'S A FUCKING STREAM COMING IN FROM THE OUTSIDE!!!!!


goddamnit, Tammy! i am not forfeiting my deposit because you can't come fucking fix the house that is your job to take care of.
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Nov 7th, 09 @ 11am
]

missmarymarch
Wishing. Wishing upon a star. Wishing results in scars. Wishing behind these bars
in a four chambered cell I lay. Moving in circles day to day. Wishing I that had just stayed away.
Cycles round the way cycles go. Most times truth never shows. My heavy heart beating cold.
Wishing is a worthless thing. Actions become just the same. Curse the day I spoke your name.

Last night I went out and saw all my girls. I had a grand welcoming. I didn't expect to see all the other girls, but I walked in and three people from different directions of the room started screaming my name and jumped up to embrace me. How sweet it is to be so loved. It really is important to me how much my friends care about me. It's like all these battered emotions I have saved up from bad romantic experiences can just be up and removed. Replaced by a love that is deeper and more honest. I love that my friends are so fond of me.

Yeah, don't mind my poems. They don't reflect on anything happening now. They're just feelings I have stored somewhere in my psyche, of feelings I've once felt. Afraid I'll just project them into things happening now. My therapist tells me not to do that, but he tells me everyone does. It's how we are wired, but we must first be aware we are doing it. It helps alleviate symptoms. It has - very much. I feel...healthy. Happy. Finally, I feel a sense of freedom from myself. It's great, but I still have demons to battle. There are roads I've not even revealed to him yet. I'm not ready to face it. It's something I'm so ashamed of I can't bring myself to manifest them in words. I can't...talk about it. I'm so ashamed. It's haunted me for years and years, hoping that we could all just forget it happened. Especially in a child's mind, perception is hard to come to terms with. Hopefully, one day we'll get there. I doubt I'll ever lose the need to see a doctor, but I'm okay with that.
I made a new friend I'm very fond of. She's fucking crazy, but...crazy bitches have more fun. The things she deals with, I see in myself. I'm getting past them and I hope she can do. I owe my therapist a lot, he's helped me more then he knows. Well...i'm sure he knows.
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Nov 6th, 09 @ 2pm
]

myperfectenemy
We admit to the truth, we are the best at what we do.
These are the words you wish you wrote down,
this is the way you wish your voice sounds.
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Nov 6th, 09 @ 2pm
]

__backstreets
HOW TO STAY YOUNG


1. Try everything twice.
On one woman's tombstone she said she wanted this epitaph:
"Tried everything twice, loved it both times!"


2. Keep only cheerful friends.
The grouches pull you down.
(Keep this in mind if you are one of those grouches!)


3. Keep learning:
Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever..
Never let the brain get idle. 'An idle mind is the devil's workshop.'
And the devil's name is Alzheimer's!


4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud.
Laugh until you gasp for breath.
And if you have a friend who makes you laugh,
spend lots and lots of time with HIM/HER.



6. The tears happen:
Endure, grieve, and move on.
The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves.
LIVE while you are alive.


7. Surround yourself with what you love:
Whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever.
Your home is your refuge.



8. Cherish your health:
If it is good, preserve it.
If it is unstable, improve it.
If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips.
Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county,
to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.


10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.
I love you, my special friend.



11.. Forgive now those who made you cry. You might not get a second chance.



Remember! Lost time can never be found.



Remember that the universe works in perfect order and,
therefore, right now your life is unfolding exactly as it is
meant to be.


I guess the bad moments in life help you
to appreciate the good ones.
So I'll struggle through this rough patch
and come out a better person.
[melissa anderson]


Love the people who treat you right, forget the ones that don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it'd be worth it.



It's okay to lose your pride over someone you love.
Don't lose someone you love though, over your pride.
([ Stick with your entree and get over your sides ])
[fabolous]


this isn't a perfect world.
people do get hurt.
you smile when you feel like crying:
you act like you're okay when you're falling apart inside.
you try to let go....
you try to move on,
because there's nothing else you can do.





You have taken advantage of my vulnerability dear (you hell's minion), and your sharp words and feigned indifference have left me in distress for too long a time. In my desperate search for you I have unknowingly and unwittingly lost myself to the pathetic point of breaking down. I know how deplorable I must have been, maddeningly shouting and crying and begging at you on countless phone calls; but I’ve long regretted those mad acts though sadly they couldn’t be undone. I’ve made a complete fool of myself, trying to pin down a person more of a fool than I am, and though embarrassing it may sound, I could say, unabashed, that I did it all for love.
But lately I’ve come face to face with the dead end of this madness. After all I have realized that I am responsible for fueling my own misery, by granting power to the pain you have caused me. You can’t destroy me any further, all because I’m not letting you. I’m done with this terrible grief. You are a horrible, horrible person, and that exactly is the reason why I now choose not to be associated with you anymore. I’m quite glad though, for all those nights I have bawled my eyes off to sleep, as I’ve given myself a time to vent with my frustrations and absorb all that’s happening in lethargy but in sheer complexity. I stayed true to myself, I have stated the pain as fact rather than fiction, but I tried hard not to be engulfed by it. I cried when I felt like I wanted to, I reminisced what we had, and I pondered hard about where have we gone wrong… and I let go. How do you mend a broken heart? that I have long asked myself and everyone else who had the tolerance to ponder incessantly on that intricate, much inquired of, question. It doesn’t have a blatant answer though, but it just happens. It just heals. I have given myself enough time to heal, and though the scars may fade, they will never vanish. I’m cutting off this string that once bound and constricted both of our hearts, and perhaps, our very own souls. I could only wish you were just a stranger I could disengage. But the spite and apathy I have endured have taught me how to make you invisible to my own world, not just turn you into a mere stranger. Farewell, you horrible person.



I'm not saying I don't want you, cause believe me I do.
I'm just not going to chase after you.

But it doesn't feel right holding someone else's hand. Together on phone lines and living at two opposite ends. But it scares me to think that you could find takers other than me and better than me.

I regret nothing. I do what my heart tells me to do.


Everything you're chasing, seems to leave you empty.


To become whole, first let yourself be broken.

It is not important, the quantity of time you have, to show your love.
But it is important, the quality of time you give, to show your love.
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[
Nov 6th, 09 @ 1pm
]

myperfectenemy
I died for you one time, but never again.
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[
Nov 6th, 09 @ 1pm
]

myperfectenemy
I used to pray like god was listening.
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[
Nov 6th, 09 @ 1pm
]

kikinryan
dishes
laundry
vacuum
gather garbage
put laundry away
wash kitchen and laundry room floor
make beds


Not too shabby. I'm gonna go work on my little bit of dishes now... lol... which will lead to cleaning the whole kitchen.
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Nov 6th, 09 @ 1pm
]

myperfectenemy
This is so messed up<3
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[
Nov 6th, 09 @ 10am
]

myperfectenemy
You can't keep a secret if it never was a secret to start.
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Christmas Shopping List [
Nov 5th, 09 @ 8pm
]

kikinryan
Bailey, Hunter & Kaleb- some kind of board game or Wii game
Stephanie, Tony, Caitlyn & Robyn- some kind of game board or Wii game
Zackary & Dylyn- board game
Adyn & Nolyn- bowling set
Avery & Madison- barbie for Avery & gift cards (Walmart)
Hannah: barbies, baby stroller, bowling set, sit and spin, some clothes, a new baby doll, and a few other things
My Parents: Gift cards from Esso, bargain shop, or Walmart
Ryan: Digital cable box
Hannah's Auntie Gifts: some kind of mix in a jar or calendars or candles..... not too sure yet
Sherri: Not too sure... have to look around
Griffey: some new dog toys
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Nov 5th, 09 @ 5pm
]

lilroxybabe8188
Hey hair, when and why did you decide to turn red on me? I don't get it.
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[
Nov 5th, 09 @ 3pm
]

teliamac
when darren and i moved into our apartment, it came with a microwave. maybe that's standard- maybe it came with the apartment. or perhaps the previous tenant left hers behind because it was a piece of shit (and she left a lot of stuff behind. it's the reason i have a popcorn bowl, a muffin tin, and a broom). seriously- we moved in april of 2008 the only buttons that worked were the "minute +" button and the "stop" button. and sometimes defrost.

so maybe we just got hosed and moved into the apartment with the crappy microwave, or maybe the girl who lived there before us didn't want to deal with moving it because it sucked. either way, it's completely dead now. i should probably email the landlords and ask about it.

the thing is, microwaves are expensive. the cheapest ones are like $60 and according to reviews, they suck. decent ones hover around the $100 mark and up. yet one can purchase a decent dvd player for like 40 bucks. this seems wrong to me.
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Nov 5th, 09 @ 12pm
]

kikinryan
Well they came and fixed my internet. The guy redid lots of stuff, including how the cable was outside. Put a new spliter on my cable and after I told him what the guy told me on the phone yesterday, they gave us a month free of their services.. such as cable and internet!! YAY!! We're gonna save $117 next month!! WAHOO!!! I need to make a shopping list so we can go grocery shopping on Friday. We're having some company come over, so I want some snacks, and such for when they come.
But I should go here, we need to go for a walk down to the store to return our movies.
♥ Kelly
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Nov 5th, 09 @ 12pm
]

missmarymarch
Things move fast in life. One minute you drowning in an ocean of regret and the next you're standing on the shore of achievement. Don't I wish more then anything just to pause the good moments. Just to be able to revel in the minor successes, since those move faster then the speed of sound. That's what good friends and family are for. They keep these moments, so precious to you, for the times when you need to hear them. I'm constantly amazed at the love there out there, in the endless universe, for me. There REALLY are people out there that love me so deeply, I struggle to fathom it. In this way I am so blessed and that trumps all things.

I'm a little surprised at how interested he is in me. He does things and I know I've been on his mind. Still, I won't let him in. He can just collect on the superficial scrapings I pass out, but he'll won't get a taste of the real person underneath the walls. I'm afraid to let him, anyone for that matter, in. Been burned so badly the fire scares me. It's a shame I won't be able to feel wholly, but what can you do when you're so jaded? Sit Adorned I suppose. One day I'll be able to trust someone with my heart. The day is not today and I won't see my therapist until next week.

I try not to hate anymore. Now when they mention his name, I don't flinch anymore. I don't want to kill him and I try not to hate him. In all honesty, I still hate him. I still wish a world of misfortune on him. The truth is, I don't have to do anything for that to happen. He is such a sick person (mentally, spiritually, and physically) that he alone will bring upon himself more damage then I could ever do. I was only ever good to him but he twist the story around and makes me sound like the evil one. The rapist is the hero and the lady is the tramp. That's how the story goes. But let me tell you something sir, heaven knows. Tall tales won't reach the gates and you won't be ascending the stairs. Your soul is dammed and your flesh will burn. You'll never love because your heart is blank. And because of that, no one will ever love you more deeply then a piece of plastic.
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Nov 5th, 09 @ 10am
]

kikinryan
Wow, Hannah and I just got up at like 10:10am. What a sleep. I think we needed it for us to both sleep that long. Here is my list for today:
laundry
dishes
vacuum
Not too shabby. But I must get started on the laundry.
♥ Kelly
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Nov 4th, 09 @ 8pm
]

kikinryan
So the ppl were suppose to be here to fix my internet today and never showed up. I'm so mad. I waited around all day. I guess dispatch never gave it out to them. Not impressed at all. Ugh.. I got a headache.
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