Something off topic i need to get off my chest, so just deal with it Here's alittle insight past the "fortress of feelings", past the norm that you're used to here. just something i need to get off my chest and out of my system..a regularly scheduled update will come sometime tomarrow about a trip to an amusement park (which because i did that shows the noimbill journal aka dorris again what a dumb shit she is) and anything ewlse i may decide to scrape up and grace you with.
when i was 11 years old (which was actually quite, quite a few years back) my late grandfather took me to the international ampitheatre in chicago. it was for a show of professional wrestling. I had never seen it before and had no clue at the time what it was (it was back in the 70's so I'm aging myself greatly here). It was alright i guess until i saw this one guy...the "American Dream" Dusty Rhodes. nothing fancy about about him. jeans, fat ass teaming with a guy named the crusher(who I came to like because he always talked about "murdering the bums" and kicking people out of bars when they come to chicago,lol). I got a bit intrigued by this fat guy dusty rhodes in the ring but never thought much of it after that show.
then came a week later when my parents take me to my grand parents house. I being the young smartass I still am to this day asked my grandfather who was watching wrestling, "well...where's this great dusty rhodes at, you hyped him as the greatest, where is he"?
half an our later Dusty Rhodes came on the tv..fat guy about maybe 280 lbs, not in shape, western shirt, blue jeans and cowboy boots...cut to me at the time was the most amazing interview. about how when he comes back to chicago he was gonna "rip their head off and dance on their toncils". and then said "we ain't gonna talk about it..we ain't gonna look for it, we gonna get down and DO IT"!
After seeing that dusty rhodes interview. I was hooked into pro wrestling. wrestling and later in life, my 80's metal (motorhead, saxon, judas priest, venom, exciter, anvil, mama's boys, gary moore, etc bands most here never heasrd of because they were raqrely layed on the radio, and their material was mostly available thru imports only) became a solace for me. I've seen just about all the major promotions in the 80's. NWA, WWF,AWA, world class from texas. they all came thru chicago because they had tv shows there and chicago, at the time was a "wrestling capital" of the united states. they came to chicag for a live show? I went. I saw one of the greatest cards ever in 1985 at comisky park."superclash 85". it had guys from the NWA, AWA, World class and japan on it. I also got to see live two other wrestlers I came to like in stan hansen ( a wild mother fucking brawler from texas) and Terry"bam bam" gordy, a badass from georgia on this show. I became a fan of the guys who loved to just beat the shit out of people like a bar room brawl.
thru the years wrestling changed the music changed but I still held true to the old wrestling and music i liked. no matter how bad things were in life. wrestling and old metal was something that helped. getting a vcr thru helping someone move i was able to tape certain things from wrestling shows. dusty interviews, stan hansen beating the shit out of some poor slob dirty dick slater cracking a fucker with a chair. jake roberts ddting some asswipe. it helped get thru hard times watching this stuff.
when i moved from chicago to new hampshire i was able to write for acouple publications you could get thru the mail, called "dirt sheets" they told the stuff behinds the scenes in the wrestling business that the tv shows didn't tell you. it helped smarten me up which i'm glad it did, because it never swayed me after i got smartened up. I got to write my opinions and stuff. i eventually got to a well known newsletter called wrestling then and now and i was able to write memories of shows I had sen in chicago.
But then something changed. my friend dave got me a ticket to an independent wrestling show in manchester nh 45 minutes away frm where we lived (we lived in the same complex and became friends). i had seen tapes of other independent companies on tape and wasn't too impressed. dave got me this ticket as a birthday present because he knew I liked "rick martel". who was a former awa champ in chicago area. i had grown up watching him become champ and then get his ass kicked all over comisky park by stan hansen. so it was a matter of did i want to see a shitty indy show just for martel or do i want to go because martel was there. i decided i would go and if it was as bad as i thought it might be, i could write about it and say shitty wrestling even happens in my own backyard, not just in jersey, pennsalvania and ohio.
this indy show for the AWF(atlantic wrestling federation) reminded me why i had become a wrestling fan when iw as age 11. it reminded me of an old time wrestling promotion. managers yelled back at fans(including me,lol) wrestling was good, interviews were simple, the reason to have a match was simply made. i had met the promoter and handed him copies of the publications I had written for. that night dave and i bought tickets to the next show which was gonna be 4 weeks from that night in the same building.
next show we show up, i hand promoter new issues of newsletters with my review of his show. King Kong Bundy was the big name on the show. I got to meet him and ask him about his time in the awa. I had a theory on something...and since dave was the "mark" fan I was trying to smarten up. I'd set him up every chance i got so that way one...i'd get my answer at his expense...two...he'd learn more about the wrestling business form the guys in it, and three....which is what I was gunning for most..he'd be treated like an equal in the conversation, which eventually happened(dave has thanked me many times for setting him up like that, after awhile he knew being the "fall guy:" benefitted him alot.lol). they did a spot show near the town we lived in 2 weeks later..at that show i was asked if i knew someone who had a camcorder...I pointed to dave and said he had one and a tripod. promoter asked if dave ever filmed a gathering and if i think he could film a wrestling show. I played it off and said "dave is a wiz at filming, give him the directions, he'll do it to a tee"....dave actually never even opened the fucking camera out of the box yet, lol. so the promoter(sivano sousa, who was a prelim guy in the 80's for the WWF now WWE) goes to dave and talks to him, dave looks over at me and i've waving my hands saying "just say yes..just say yes..".Dave comes up to me afterwards and says "what in the hell just happened, all i saw was you waving your arms and i figured out what you were saying to me". I explained how we just got our lucky break into the wrestling business. how we nolonger have to pay to see the show because now, we're becoming part of the show.
Dave was nervous because he was the one who had the "moral chip" on his shoulder, I had to be the one that knocked it off and tell him like it was. he was so worried about fucking up the filming, if it didn't go right, etc and I told him just do it exactly how Sousa wants it done, and I know the perfect place in that building in manchester to set it up too. we both said at the same time "on the stage". perfect shot of the ring, film wrestlers going to and from the ring, keep it simple.
so 2 weeks later here we were setting up the camcorder.in them two weeks a wrestling magazoine named wrestling world came out with new issue (I had gotten advance copies) that had an article on the AWF I wrote and sent in. even had my picture with one of the guys printed in it (I still have that issue actually, lol). wrestlers came up left and right and thanked me for what I wrote, they never knew I was the one who wrote all the stuff they read. they just knew me as the loudmouth fan who yelled shit and got the fans chanting stuff. being part of the show now was a huge differencein how dave and i were treated.
I eventually moved to a different promotion because i wanted to bring wrestling to the area where i lived. AWF wouldn;t but WWA New England would if i was wiling to jump ship and do for them what i did for AWF. I said if i come dave comes too because if it wasn't for him, i wouldn't even be doing this. dave came too and filmed stuff for them too (even when we weren't supposed to because this company had the training dojo of the now WWE on their shows and it was a "no no". we did it anyway, i always found a way around it, lol). I was able to locally promote three shows in my area, 2 in my town of rochester and one in the next town of farmington. i was able to meet so many different people thu the WWA. guys i grew up watching like george 'the animal
steele, sgt slaughter, pat patterson(who i because i had also dealt in wrestling tapes, was able to give patterson a 3 tape set of his old matches that he couldn't get, or wasn't allowed by the now WWE to tape for himself). because of this training dojo, some of the guys you see on tv now, we were able to meet before they went on tv. hardys, edge, kurt angle, al snow, jeff jarrett, jim cornette(who suscribed to wrestling then and now and knew of my writings there), dory funk jr. tom and bruce pritchard(who was brother love), killer kowalski, dustin rhodes, dr. death steve williams, william regal(who had a convo with me about a BBC documentry on wrestling in england and germany i had on tape, he i and killer kowalski talking about this tape was a moment where i realizxed again i was living a fan's dream come true). one night in woburn,mass. i had a convo with killer kowalski on who really created the iron claw. I was doing an article on it and i explained i know you did it, i grew up with baron von rashke in the midwest. blackjack mulligan and the von erichs also did it. during this convo legendary wrestler tito santana was no more than 5 feet away from me hearing this. I grew up watching him too so I was in awe of the man. i was able to talk to titpo and give him some awa mempories i had of him, did tyhe same with sgt slaughter and slaughter on a show i locally promoted chuckled and said "so...you're the awa fanatic, why didn't you just say you worked for this company"? I always kept that on a downlow in front of fans who weren't 'in the know".I toild him i as an old school fan who knows the old school ways.. mark fans don't need to know unless they earn that right. sarge smiled and said "you really do respect the old school. nice. that respect don't come that often, it's nice seeng it from you".
i had moved on to another promotion in maine that was more of the "extreme" or "Hardcore" nature. tables breaking more chair swinging,,, boy did i get into that even though they didn't use a big name guy that often. Got dave to come in with me here too. where i went, dave was going too if he wanted too (and man DID HE WANT TOO, lol). Dave went from being the fan at ringside witrh me during shows (where we'd yell shit at the bad guys and get chants going for the good guys), to working security. he was the one who had to go between me and the wrestlers who came off the ring and got in my face (they knew they could do that with me because they knew I was with the company). dave got a huge kick out of being the go between in them situations. we were both living our dreams of being in the wrestling business. three different promotions, three different ways on how they presented it but all three gave us total respect because we did what we said we'd do.
i was able to locally promote a sow for this company (EWA which is now in maryland after being sold twice).ne phone call was all it took for a return to a college right near the vermont border. saw two more guys I had grown up watching. the mountie and steve keirn(who used tobe in the fabulous ones and known as skinner in what is now wwe). they faced each other in the ring and i love watching that match on tape. all my jawjacking at the mountie and both he and keirn had no idea i was the local promoter for the show until after the show, LOL! I was able to meet both of them which added to the fact i was living my dream at the time.
I bring al this up because old metal and old wrestling was always a solace for me. always a thing to help me thru bad times in life. part of my child hood that i was able to expand on later in life. i had seen old ecw on tape when they were first starting out in the 90's. smokey mountain wrestling, memphis, alot of old territories because i dealt in tapes too. ther eis a point to this long ass post.
point is in the last 2 weeks that childhood dream took a whack big time. on the heels of my special friend sadie dying, two wrestlers I watched and admired died. sherrie martel who was my all time woman wrestler period. from awa ladie's champ to WWF ladie's champ to her stuff in old ECW. she was my favorite and in a way, a closet crush ever since i could remember. her dark hair, dark skin, louisiana accent and awesome talent had me hooked since i was real young. she was the one. if anyone had a fantasy you know would never be fulfilled? she was it for me, tough i once did get an email from her personally because i told the woman who trained her (fabulous moolah) my most sincere opinion of her). she died of not natural causes... it whacked the little kid in me that first became a wrestling fan.
then came chris benoit. i first saw him in the old ECW. later i saw a few matches and interviews from canada where he started. but ECW (and an NWA new jersey show where he faced terry funk, another crazy ass texan I love, lol. brawling motherfuckers I do like, lol). to find out that one of the greatest technical professional wrestlers of al time kills his own wife and one of his children. really..has me emotionally mixed. he was married to one very hot looking woman, she used to be in wresting as "woman", very very very pretty, could have any guy she wanted, she was just that pretty. to kill her, your own kid and then kill yourself. really puts to me an opinion that would be so unpopular with the masses of fans who loved watching him wrestle on tv and pay per views.
but...truth is truth and i always call it as i see it. so...as much as i admited the guy in the wrestling ring...the fact he was so callous and heartless and such a lowlife sonof abitch that he would kill his wife, the mother of his own children, and then kill one of his own kids? fucking lowlife piece of shit coward who took the easy way out by killing himself because he had no balls to face up to what he did to his own family..
as pissed as I've been at debbie i would have never tried to ill her, even if her and I were together. that's a pussy way out and that's exactly what chris benoit did., he took the pussy way out. there i said it so any wrestling fan who don't like what i say, have the bals to reply to me and leave a name. I bet nobody does because they know i'm right, and for all the memorials fans have written, i'm the lone guy who has the balls to tell it like it is no matter what. that's why I'll always have the TRUE balls online and will always be known as the true badass in blurty. because i have the balls to stand by what i say and not backstep like a netpussy like most do online if some other netpussy gets his panties in an uproar. I cal it asi see it and I say ot ike it is, that's why i am known as the true badass here. i'm the only one anywhere in blurty that has the true balls to be the true badass i live 24/7 every single day of my life. that's just how it is when you're me. could you handle being me all the time?" na. very few could because they just don't have what it takes like I do.
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